Ruined

• Chapter- 11 •

"I have to go. ", Laura mumbles and tries for an escape but I cage her against the wall with my hands on either side of her.

"You are not leaving. We haven't finished talking. "

"I think we pretty much said everything. "

"So that's just it? You are going to keep ignoring me and hurting both of us? Laura we are best friends, that's beyond everything else. I'm sorry for everything I said, alright? Just please.. ", I beg and rub my right eye because it feels sore. My sight is kinda blurry.

"Ross.. I.. I don't know anymore. It's not your fault though. I just don't think I can do this. ", Laura looks down.

"I'll get over it. It's a knife to my chest but I don't care. At least that's where I'm trying to get. Laura, I just want you back and I'm trying to avoid all the fights.. It's just that I'm not succeeding. You piss me off. I'm sorry. "

"It's not just this. I can't have this conversation now.. We are both drunk. ", she breathes.

"Then just fucking tell me everything is alright between us. ", I demand and my eyes search for hers. When they finally find them, it feels as if neither of us can look away.

"I don't know. You hurt me. "

"You hurt me too. "

"I'm sorry. ", Laura quietly says and leans her head back against the wall, trying to put as much space between us as possible.

I just stare at her and she stares back at me. I'm not really sure what to tell her. I can tell she is thinking the same. My stomach growls at me but I stay still. I'm not really sure I've eaten anything today. If I only have alcohol in me, then I will certainly throw up. My eyes wander to her plump cracked lips. They're always cracked. She doesn't take care of them well but I can assure you I will.

I look down at her hands and frown, my own ones reaching for them. Laura flinches when I touch her skin and my eyes soften at the thought she might be afraid of me. I gently bring them up in front of my face and stare at the scratches I made in pure anger. Now I'm angry at myself. What the hell was I thinking? Hurting her is the last thing I want. Within seconds, her scarred wrists are up against my lips. Laura looks down as I leave small pecks on either one of her hands.

"I didn't mean to. ", I tell her quietly and intertwine my fingers with hers. I press the back of her hands against the wall with mines.

"R-Ross. ", Laura murmurs when I step even closer, making our bodies touch. "What are you doing? "

"I.. don't know. ", I gulp, glancing down at her lips. Mines are drawn closer to them and I look up into her eyes when they brush each other. Laura's eyes are closed and she doesnt try to stop me. Our mouths brush against each other once more but I stop and pull away.

"Who's the guy with you? You came with someone? Are you guys dating? ", I ask.

I have to make sure everything is alright. I wouldn't want kissing someone else's girl.

"It's... Don't freak out but.. Scott was the one to give me a ride to this place and he'll be taking me back home. ", Laura breathes in and looks at me.

I clench my jaw. "Really? When did you even get a favor from him? Are you guys together or fuck buddies or something like that? "

"No, no! Oh my god, is that how you think of me? I.. I would never be with someone just for pleasure. You're really an idiot, Ross. ", she snaps, her voice finally reaching its normal highness.

"Then what? Why him? Out of all the guys.. I wouldn't have complained even if you came with Cole but no, Mr First Oral had to be your ride. ", I growl and her face goes to horrified.