Adams Point Of View:
I heard the front door shut, as I peered around the door I saw Lola but where was Paisley? She told me Paisley was at Tommy and Lydia's, I was gobsmacked. "She's your mom she deserves to see her granddaughter" I said. It just slipped out, she looked at me her face like thunder. She started yelling at me then marched out the back door slamming the door shut. The slam echoed in my ear for a minute, damn she really didn't like her mom. "Im so sorry I've caused all this trouble" Lola's mom said. I spun round, "no really its fine, just give her some time to calm down" I told her. I boiled the kettle, "tea?" I asked. "Yeah that would be nice thanks" she replied. "I forgot to ask, what is your name I can't keep calling you Lola's mom" I said smiling. "My name is tiffany" she said taking the cup I handed her. "Hmm cool name, can I ask you something?" I asked. "of course you can" she replied. "Why does Lola hate you so much?" I questioned. "Because I haven't been there for her, I've been so wrapped up in John, that's Lola's dad by the way. I didn't know how unhappy us fighting was making her, she just hid up in her room all the time listening to you on her iPod. When I found the letter before she ran away, I finally realised what we had done to her. I was so worried about her, I didn't sleep for weeks." she said looking down at the table. "please carry on" I urged. "Then Phil had to get involved didn't he, that was johns idea. He was like a fuse in a bomb, if you did one thing wrong he would snap."
"I should have been there for her, not siding with that monster. The way he spoke to her was uncalled for, I slapped her. I have regretted it everyday since, I regretted it as soon as I had done it. I hated myself for what I had done, now she hates me. I really don't blame her though you know, I've been a crap mother to her these past few years im ashamed of myself for that" she finished. I looked at her, wow that was deep. "Have you tried talking to her?" I asked. "Nope she wont give me the time of day, its hard but she wont listen to me" she replied. "write it down in a letter and give it to her when you move on" I suggested. "That's a good idea" she replied. "Now im going to have to go and find my wife, please excuse me" I said politely and headed up the garden in search of Lola.
I soon found her she was sitting on the wall at the back of the garden, she was throwing stones violently into the stream behind the house. I climbed up the wall and sat next to her, she didn't even look at me. "Lola are you ok?" I asked. "Yeah im fantastic" she said sarcastically. "No need to be sarky, I spoke to your mom. She's crushed that you hate her" I said. "Oh well boo hoo for her, do I really look like I give a shit?" she said. "You know what Lola I really don't get you sometimes, she's still your mom" I said. "Yeah well I wish she wasn't, you will never understand Adam and I don't expect you to" she snapped. "chill out will you, I wish you would talk to me its not healthy to keep it bottled up" I said.
"Fine you really want to know why I hate my mom Adam?" I asked looking him in the eye. "Of course I do!" Adam cried. "I hate her because she was never there for me, she was always so wrapped up in my dad she couldn't give a hoot about me. They kept arguing and arguing never once thinking of how it affected me. I flunked school because of it, I kept getting into fights with other kids. My grades slipped so low, I got expelled. I acted like I was going to school, but I hung around in the park. Drinking and getting into all sorts of trouble, I ended up in a bad crowd. They tried to get me to do drugs, when I refused they used to hit me. You have no idea how that made me feel, I felt like I had hit rock bottom and the worlds crumbling on top of me with no means of escape." I started reliving every moment of my life. "I was a shadow of the girl I used to be, I hated it and I hated listening to my mom and dad fighting. Listening to your music was the only thing that stopped me doing something silly. I used to stand on top of cliffs wanting to jump, but I didn't. I continued to live like this for years, I even stole money to buy alcohol" I carried on. "And that is why I hate my mom, she didn't even know I existed. I tried to talk to her but she just blanked me, she didn't give me the time of day." I finished.
Adams mouth dropped open, "wow" he said. "You see Adam, I have a past and not a very nice one. Underneath it all im a broken person, this outer shell is all an act" I said as angry tears rolled down my face. I brushed them away, jumping off the wall "everything isn't all black and white you know Adam, everyone has a past, a part of them that they hide. A part of them they don't want anyone else to see. This is me Adam, this is the reason I used to cry myself to sleep every damn night. That's never going to change, the person I am inside will haunt me forever" I told him holding my arms out. "Lola I'm sorry I really had no idea" Adam said jumping down onto the grass. "I don't expect you to, I've never told anyone this not even Lydia" I said looking down at the floor. Adam wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into him, he kissed my head. I felt safe and secure in his arms, I was glad he finally knew who I was..
