Married To a Noona

Once Again being Loved

Song recommendation : Once Again (OST Descendants of The Sun) by Mad Clown, Kim Nayoung

: Hold Me Tight by BTS

I woke up a little late today. I quickly take a bath and grabbed my phone and made a call to this one person. Im Nayeon. I promised her yesterday that we'll have breakfast together, but I unintentionally woke up late. What to do?

I called her and told her not to wait for me and had breakfast alone. But then I had to make out to her that we'll had lunch together, without thinking much about my appointment with my personal investigator. I couldn't ended up upset her once again.

Then I rechecked my schedule today, luckily there were no important meeting, so I can meet up that guy later in the evening. Huh! I'm already tired and the funny thing was, I just woke up and haven't dressed up yet. What a life!

After the discussion about my first ever project, I quickly grabbed my stuff and ran out of my office. It's only 12 o'clock that time. I'm early today. She must be happy then. I simply thought.

My mood suddenly went up high. I arrived at her company about 15 minutes later. I didn't even called her, so I just went up to her office and waited for her at the lounge at that level. I waited for her quietly while sitting there crossing my leg.

After about 10 minutes waiting while playing 'Need for speed', I saw Nayeon walked out from their meeting room with Yoongi. That made me startled and sad at the same time. She was all smiling from top-to-toe while with him.

I made up my mind and stood up from there and just walked away without her noticed. I'm kind of hurt a bit, but it wasn't her fault. He's her boyfriend, the guy that she loved. What about me? I'm just her so called 'fiance' that she never felt love with. That's the facts that I had to live with, for the time being. I hope.

But came to think of it, after all this time, we're just pretending, right? We never loved each other.

Im Nayeon POV

I saw Jaein dashed out from the lounge and ran into the lift. He seemed in hurry, so I didn't even stopped him instead walked into my office with Yoongi. Then I fetched my handbag and went for lunch with Yoongi. I wondered why he came he and then just went away like that. That thing kept playing in mind even when we're having lunch. Until Yoongi held my hand that laid on the table while waiting for our foods.

" Hey, are you okay? What's wrong?" he said as he held my hand. I pulled it from him. He startled. "Did I say something wrong? If I ever did it, I'm sorry. Nayeon-ah."

" No, it wasn't like that. You're doing fine. It's just I'm tired from working too hard I guess." I lied.

Min Yoongi POV

I knew she lied. I knew it. If not, why she did let go of my hand. She never did that before. Instead she loved it. Why all of sudden?

" You know, if you're tired of this kind of relationship, I'll pull myself out of this. And it wasn't mean that I don't love you. I did love you. But, I don't know about you. Are you still love me? " I questioned her. She seemed astonished.'

" Why are you saying this? I don't like this kind of conversation, Yoongi. I love you. With all my heart." She said, tears even started to fall on her pinkish cheeks.

" Yah, uljimaa.. people will think that I'm the bad guy here. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I love you, Nayeon-ah." I cupped her hand. She didn't let go this time. But that didn't made me felt anything. It's different from before. Did my feelings for her had faded away? Oh please don't. what's wrong with me? What should I do?

Sung Jaein POV

I entered my office as soon as I had lunch with my fellow employees at our company café. And then I saw dad sitting crossed-leg with a piles of paper works on the coffee table. Ah! Again? Please, help me dear God. I kept praying as I went closer to him.

" Dad. What brings you here? " I asked him politely, I think.

" Why? Can't I visit my own son? Or do I need to make an appointment then? " He smiled. He smiled! For now I think. But I'm grateful enough that he eventually smiled at me.

" Aniya! It's not like that. No need. But, I think I got the main point of your visit. If you're gonna ask me about the project, I honestly confessed that I haven't finished it yet. The progress is 70% complete." I explained with my head facing to the ground like a kid who didn't finished his homeworks.

" Oh! That's good. It's quite fast. I thought it's only about 40% complete. You exceed my expectations. I'm glad to hear that. Come, sit here beside me." He patted the seat next to him. I walked towards him.

He held my hand and said " Now, the company is yours. You're more than qualified to be the owner. And you're the only heir. I need my son to replaced me. I know that you don't even like to be in this field. But you need to help me. Even your noona don't want this company. She's so into fashion. So I let it slide. But, I know you're capable of managing these. Although you're just 21 years old, you're mature here and here." He was pointing at my heart and my head.

"I know, you're just like me. I'm sorry if I ever treat you bad these years, which make us pull each other apart, that put us in this distance. I'm sorry that I kept blaming you for the cause of your brother's death. I want you to know that I never regretted to have you as my son. I know that all these years, you tried hard to gain my love back, but I never dare to, because I was so mad and at the same time, I'm ashamed of myself. For blaming a 13 years old boy. I'm so sorry, Jaein-ah. I'm sorry for those hurtful words that I've said. I'm sorry that I kicked you out of the house. I'm sorry that I neglected you. I'm sorry that I never attended to your school graduation. I'm sorry for not attending your Taekwondo championships. I'm sorry that you have to be loved by your grandparents instead of us, your parents." He then pulled me into his embrace.

He hugged me tight. The hug that I've been longing for a long time. A hug by my father. Tears falling, and kept flowing. I don't even want to do anything right now. I just miss him so much. I miss my dad. I hugged him even tighter. He then kept patted me in the head and my back. I couldn't help but to cry even more. I maybe look like baby right now. But I don't even care. As long as I could felt his embrace. Then he pulled away from me.

" You're crying face never change. Your looks is the same as before. Do you remember when you fall from the monkey bars and hurt your left arm? You then came to me. Crying with all your might. You didn't went to your mom, instead came running to me. You're different from your brother and sister. You always make me feels so special. You never fail to make me laugh with your witty jokes. You're the light of our life. And I don't want to lose you again." He smiled and I saw tears falling from his eyes.

" Appa. Appa. I miss calling you that. Appa, I miss you. I miss you so much. Appa, mianhae. Jeongmal mianhae." I couldn't say more as I kept sobbing. Then dad wiped my tears and said " Don't ever let anyone see your tears. They'll think you're easy person to take down. You must be strong, and I know you can. Okay? Promise me? " He gestured his pinky finger.

" What's with the pinky promise, dad? I'm 21 already." I smiled and laughed a bit.

" That's it. I'm the one who can make you smile easily. Right? Just make the pinky promise with me." He said proudly.

" Okay, okay! Here, stamp, seal." In the end we made the pinky promise.

" I thought you said you're 21, but you still cried like a baby." He teased me.

" And I thought you're 60 this year, and you're sobbing hard just now." I backfired him.

Dad asked me to join him dinner tonight, just the two of us. He thinks we should spend time more, to cover all these years wrongdoings. I wouldn't say not to him. I even cancelled my meeting with my personal investigator. Luckily he also had something else to do. I then reschedule my meeting with him the other day.

We talked about many things. Childhood days and memories. We never talked like this before. Which make me feel alive again and felt the love from my father. The one that I could rely on, let out my worries, share my concerns. I swear to God that if He could just stopped the time, I want to stop here. Being alone with my dad. And feels his warmth. Once again to be felt being loved.