The Alphabet is for Drabbles (A Hey Arnold! Fanfic)

One-sided

Dear Arnold:

Do I still love you?

After all this time, all these years, I still think of you. You’re an unbreakable force inside my mind, an impenetrable wall inside my heart. Just when I start to forget you, to ignore that you exist, you come back to me. Under any circumstance I’m at, you appear out of nowhere. Is this life’s cruel joke on me? Why would life think that to be funny? Why that, and why you? I really can’t explain much, I really don’t know.

I miss you, you know. I really do. My heart still wants yours, yearns for it. How sad is that? Man, I’m pathetic. Oh, how I wish this stupid crush wouldn’t be a one-sided thing anymore. But alas, dreams don’t come true. At least for me they don’t.

But don’t worry, my love. I won’t be as cruel as I was before. I won’t control your life and I won’t dictate whom you may date. I merely wish for your own good. I’ll be content with what I have, rather than losing it, losing you.

If you ever find the need for someone just remember that I’ll always be there. It doesn’t matter if I’ve changed, it doesn’t matter if I’m far. It doesn’t matter if I cry because I can’t have you by my side. I’ll be looking after you no matter what.

I guess this letter answers my first question.

I love you, football head. I always have, and I always will.