The Most Painful Life

Chapter 9 - Finally getting the man I want

I woke up the next morning around 9 AM. I laid in bed with my eyes tightly shut, replaying the scenes of last night over and over in my head. I was almost certain it was a dream, but when I woke up and looked at my phone, I was pleasantly surprised with a text from Zack, letting me know it wasn't a dream.

''Hey, Charley. I'm so happy about last night! I really can't wait to see you again, so I'll be round to pick you up at 11. Be ready. I love you. xxxxxxxxxx''

I was so happy. All those years of loving him, and he loved me back. He'd never let on either, I had absolutly no clue. I always thought we were just going to be best friends.

I decided to take a shower and get ready for when Zack picked me up. I decided that since Zack seemed to like me just the way I was, I wore my Bullet For My Valentine band tee, and green skinny jeans with my black converse. I was going to get my hair back how it used to be too. I hated being brunette. I put on a bit of eyeliner on top of my eyes and straightened my hair. I didn't want to look too 'just-got-out-of-bed'. I texted Zack at 10 to 11 to tell him I was ready, and he arrived at my apartment at 11. I climbed into his car and gave him a quick kiss on the cheek, before settling down in the passenger seat.

"Hey!" He complained, before dragging me back to give me a full kiss on the lips. I couldn't help but smile. This was everything I'd ever wanted from a man.

"You know we're still going to see Leo's band play tonight, right?" I said as we were driving to Zacks. His green eyes flickered to me for a second as he answered.

"You still wanna go? Even though.. y'know.. you and him..." He trailed off.

"Yeah. Why shouldn't I go? Just because me and you are like.. together now, doesn't mean I can't be friends with him. He was a nice guy!" I replied. I could understand where Zack was coming from though, if he wanted to go spend time with someone he'd previously dated, I would be totally against it. But this was me, I wouldn't cheat on him. Ever. I loved him too much.

"Okay. But ring Kurt, make sure he's coming too then. Leo might swing the other way. Kurt could be in tonight." He winked, laughing. His laugh made me laugh, he was too cute. I rung Kurt and made sure he was still up for tonight, which luckily, he was. Tonight was going to be eventful, that was for sure.

We got to Zacks and he practically dragged me inside. He instantly kissed me, shocking me at first, but I soon got into it and kissed him back.

"You know, you're gorgeous." Zack said. I blushed and tried to hide my face behind my hair, but he moved it out of my face and kissed me with a passion I hadn't felt before.

"I'm not.." I mumbled, before being dragged to his sofa, where he put the TV on and we sat cuddled together watching music videos.

"You are." He whispered in my ear. I could feel his hot breath on my neck and it made him all the more irresistible. I turned around and crashed our lips together, before practically ripping his shirt off revealing his gorgeous body to me. I couldn't restrain myself anymore, and gave into him completely. Running my hands over every inch of his wonderful body, my lips never leaving his, even as we tried to undress each other.

We were moving fast, but we loved each other. We were both caught up in each other, and didn't even notice the time going past. 2 hours later and we were laid on the floor together, coated in sweat, trying to catch our breaths. I laid my head on his bare chest and couldn't help but smile. This was perfect. It was everything I'd ever dreamed of, being with Zack. I felt him kiss the top of my head and I hugged his waist, trying to get even closer to him.

"We're gonna need to shower." Zack said, spoiling the silence. I nodded and he pulled us up, heading for the shower.

After we were both finally clean, Zack dried my hair for me. It was a brilliant feeling, just to know that he loved me. I couldn't be happier if I tried. Nothing was going to spoil this mood. I put my hair in a plait and dressed back into the clothes I had on before we got sidetracked. I heard my phone go off in my back pocket and answered immediately, not bothering to look at the caller ID.

"Hey, Charley!" Leo's voice said.

"Oh, Hey Leo." I smiled. Zack looked at me with a confused expression, but I motioned for him to be quiet and he came over and hugged my side.

"Still coming tonight?" He asked, excitedly.

"Yeah, sure. Zack and Kurt'll be coming too." I replied.

"Zack and Kurt?" He asked, almost confused and.. hurt?

"Yeah. I told you about them. Kurt's my gay friend, and Zack.. well Zack's my boyfriend now." I laughed, hoping he wouldn't take it the wrong way.

"Oh.. I see. Cool! Anyway, it starts at 6, so yeah.. Can't wait to see you backstage after." He said. He didn't seem too bothered, for which I was relieved, but I still couldn't shake the feeling that I had been slightly slutty. I'd gone on a date with Leo and soon after hooked up with Zack. But I loved Zack.

"Well.. I'll see you then. Bye Leo!" I said before hanging up. That was slightly awkward. But I was determined to make tonight a good night.

"Is he okay with.. y'know.. me and you?" Zack asked, almost laughing.

"He seemed it. We only went on one date though, Zack. I doubt he even cares about me." I said.

We watched Paranormal Activity 2 and then went out to dinner before setting off to meet Kurt before Leo's gig.

Okay, this was utter shit, and probably really fucking cheesy. But I just don't even know what to right.. So yeah. If you even bother to read this, I'm sorry for the really short crappy chapter. But the next one I'll make better, I promise:3