The Most Painful Life

Chapter 6 - Zack

This chapter is going to be written from Zack's point of view. I bet you can already guess what some of the things going on in his head are, but you'll find out for certain here. If you read please comment!:)

I love her. I love her so much and she'll never know. I never felt like this about anyone before. Not even that chick I met in the bar the other day. She was a queen in bed, but not as good as Charley. I never thought I'd be able to say I'd had sex with her, but I was happy that I could, even if it wasn't under the perfect circumstances.

I loved the feeling of her naked flesh pressed against mine. And no matter how perverted it might be, I loved looking at her naked body. She was so beautiful. The way her beautiful big brown eyes burnt into mine when I woke up next to her, which was becoming more and more often. The reason I made her watch scary movies, just so she could sleep in my bed. I loved her hair too, the way it was always so wavy when she woke up, or how straight it was when she straightened it. I loved the way it was so white-blonde, with her pink and orange highlights merging into each other. I loved the way she didn't care what people thought of her, how she changed her hair all the time, and she didn't care about the clothes she wore, especially around me. She let me see her in joggers and a vest, which she looked so beautiful in. I just wanted to hold her in my arms and never let her go.

It broke my heart when she told me she was going on a date with Leo. I used to be friends with him, around a year ago, before we drifted apart. I never let him meet Charley simply because of his reputation. He used girls for the one thing he wanted, then left them alone, heartbroken. I tried to warn her about him, but she didn't believe me, she had been sucked in by his charm. I was so relieved when she told me he didn't take advantage of her, but instead I had to be the one to do that. I'm such an idiot.

I remembered that night so very well...

*****

"I'm so drunk!" She laughed, taking another vodka shot. I smiled at her, I was no where near as drunk as her, she was such a lightweight. We ended up on the floor play fighting again. She had me pinned down to the floor, her face so close to mine. I just wanted to kiss her, I wanted to pin her down and take over her. I wanted to touch every part of her perfect body, I wanted to make her mine. She stopped attacking me for one minute, and I pounced on her. I kissed her on the lips, hoping to god she was drunk enough to kiss me back, and she was. It was the best kiss I'd ever had in my whole life. It was so passionate. Both of our bodies pressed against each other in a way that was almost painful, but I just wanted to be closer to her. My arms found their way around her waist and her arms snuck up behind my neck, pulling our faces even closer, if it were possible. I couldn't think straight anymore, whether it was the alcohol or the lust that had built up inside me that clouded my thoughts, I found myself absentmindedly picking Charley up and heading to my room with her, turning off the TV on the way out. Our lips stayed glued together as I carried her up the stairs, her legs wrapped around my middle, making me nearly fall over multiple times.

I practically ran to my bedroom when we fnially got up the stairs, setting her down on the bed. I removed both our clothes and she pulled me back to her, kissing me again. I managed to get my thoughts together to ask her if she was sure about it.

"Charley, wait. Stop. Are you sure you wanna do this? We can just give up now, go to bed. You'll regret this in the morning. I'll regret this in the morning." I said, pulling away from her. She grabbed my hand and pulled me back.

"No, Zack. I wanna do this. I love you!" She said quickly. My heart nearly burst out of my chest. She loved me? She wanted to this this because she loved me? I grinned like a 5 year old at christmas.

"You love me? So you won't regret this?" I asked her. She answered me with another passionate kiss.

"I love you too, Charley. So much." I whispered, unsure if she heard me or not. After that I couldn't think about anything but Charley, while we both fell into an unimaginable pleasure.

The next morning I heard Charley yelling, covering up her naked body with the thin sheet that covered us. I suddenly realised that everything she'd said last night was a lie. She didn't love me, not in that way. But I loved her. I pretended to be shocked that we'd had sex the night before, she clearly regretted it.

*****

When Kurt had come over the next morning, I noticed Charley looking suspcious when he whispered in my ear. He knew that I loved Charley, I had done for the past 5 years. He told me I needed to ask her out, I needed to make her mine. And even though I knew he was right, I wasn't prepared for the rejection I was almost certain to get from her.

After I drove Charley home, I rung Kurt to come back over. Even though he was gay, he really knew how to treat a woman. I needed some tips. I needed to know how to win Charleys heart, no matter how cliche that sounded.

"Hey, Zack!" Kurt shouted when he walked into my house.

"Hey." I said simply. I'd been thinking all about Charley for the past hour, and I couldn't help but get upset about the whole thing.

"Look, I know you love her. I've never seen you in love like this before. And I'm also pretty damn sure she feels the same. I've seen the way she looks at you, she hangs on your every word. You could tell her to jump off the highest cliff for you, and she would. She really would." He said seriously, sitting down next to me.

"Really? You really think so?" I asked. He nodded. I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror, trying to sort my messy shower hair out.

"Ergh, look at me. I'm pathetic. I've been in love with her for five years. I need to just pluck up the balls to ask her out. And if I get rejected.. then I don't really know what I'll do. But I'll deal with that when it comes. I'm gonna ask her out tomorow night, take her to a nice resteraunt. Better than where Leo took her. I'm gonna treat her like a queen, then I'll ask her out. I just hope she says yes." I sighed.

"Take her to that nice new indian restaraunt in town. It's pretty expensive but she's worth it. Then bring her back to yours, get cozy and ask her out. Then, providing it all goes well, you'll be together for ever!" He squealed jokingly in a girly voice. I laughed at him. Kurt stayed with me for the rest of the day, mainly playing COD on the ps3 and chatting about football and music.