Don't Go (Oliver Sykes Fanfic)

Chapter Four

(A/N funny story, when I was writing "chapter four" I accidentally wrote "chapter hell" because I'm listening to Go To Hell For Heaven's Sake by BMTH c:)

"And then I found out how hard it is to really change. Even hell can get comfy once you've settled in." Bring Me the Horizon, Hospital for Souls

Chapter Four

I flattened my bed sheets for the umpteenth time and smoothed my hat on my head for the twelfth. Mom squeezed my hand reassuringly and gave me an excited smile.

It's finally happening! 

There was a knock on the door and my breath got stuck in my throat.

He's here.

My mom let out an excited "come in" and then the door opened. Oh. My. God. If it's possible, he is even more flawless in real life. His tattoos. Oh holy shit.

"Hello, Ella?" He asked, timidly. 

Is the Oliver Sykes nervous? OMG. (Ew did I just say that? I'm turning into Josh.)

"Uhh.... Uhhh hi!" I chirped.

He juts out his hand and shakes mine warmly. His grip is firm and steady.

"So, Ella, how did you become a fan of BMTH?" He asked, trying to start conversation.

I cracked a smile at his lame attempt. "Umm, I don't know, my friend Josh has been a fan since the beginning-- oh yeah he wants me to tell you that he loves you-- and after life became more difficult I actually took a listen. And may I say, I am pretty sure an angel gave their voice to you." I spit out in a long ramble.

Oli smiles lets out a small laugh.

"Well, Ella, I am pretty sure an angel gave you a beautiful heart and the most powerful strength. If you don't mind me asking, how long have you been here?" His tone turns a deadly serious and I manage to hold back a flinch.

"Too long. But you've made it better." I smile, trying to clear the air.

"My girlfriend, Hannah," Oli begins, "just thinks you are the strongest person ever. I told her about how I'm visiting you today and I almost had to restrain her not to come." He laughs at the end.

"Well, maybe, if you, um, ever, uhh, wanted to come back, my mom can leave and you, er, could bring Hannah?" I question, nervously.

I'd love to have Oli visit again and he just got here. If only there were allowed to be more than two people here at once.

"I'd truly love that. Would you want to come down to the cafeteria and eat lunch with me?" He asks, double checking with my mom to see if that's okay.

My mom waves her hand in my face to get my attention. "How are you feeling Ella? Up to it?" She asks, hoping that I was.

I nod eagerly and shoo her away. She laughs and her and Oli help me into a wheel chair.

Oh. 

My.

Fuck.

Oliver Sykes is pushing me in a wheelchair to have lunch with me. Am I dreaming? Josh will FREAK out when I tell him. Oli and I talk about useless, boring things on the way, but the whole time neither of us are bored. We seem to be captivated in one another. He seems like a long lost best friend that I've never met, and I am so thankful to get the chance now to meet him.

Before I die.

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"OH MY FUCKING FREAKING SHITTING GOD! ELEANOR, OLIVER SYKES IS COMING BACK?! OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT!" Josh screamed and jumped around ecstatically.

I laughed heartily and nodded my head. 

"Am I meeting him this time?" He asks eagerly.

Shit. I bow my head down and then look up at him nervously.

"Well... Uh... Hannah Snowden er wanted to meet me. And uh due to the limit, um no you can't. Maybe if he wanted to come back you can?" The last part comes out more of a question than a statement.

Joshua immediately sombers up. A look of betrayal flashes across his face but he gives me a small, sad smile instead.

"Josh..." I begin but he interrupts me.

"It's okay. Having Hannah Snowden come is much better." His voice cracks and I silently pray the tears don't flow.

Josh is my anchor, I can't have him fall apart on me now. A spasm runs through my spine and I jolt in the bed. I whimper in pain and immediately all sadness erases from Josh's face. 

"Ella!" He shouts before pressing the nurse button repeatedly.

The pain becomes too much and the last thing I see before blacking out is a herd of nurses and the doctor rushing in.

~ ~ ~

"Is she going to be okay?" I hear a voice say in a concerned tone.

Mom?

I try to open my eyes but fail.

"That's what we hope and are working on. When she had the attack, it was definitely a seizure."

"What does that mean?"

"Unfortunately, it means the cancer has in fact spread to her brain." 

I hear my mom choke on a sob before straight out bawling. I hear someone comfort her.

Dad?

This I have to see.

Ignoring the excruciating pain, I pry my eyes open. I instantly regret that as the light is completely blinding.

"Quick! Get the light!" I hear Dr. Vasquez yell out.

Immediately the room is consumed in darkness and I sigh in relief.

"Ella? How are you feeling?" Dad asks me.

I smile slightly at the fact that he and Mom are hugging me.

"I've been better." I croak out. 

My voice is raspy and I'm surprised I have a voice at all.

"Honey," My mom starts, "you had a seizure earlier. It means," she pauses and looks at Dr. Vasquez, "it means the cancer has spread to your brain."

Even though I heard that before, I immediately start crying.

Before, there was some hope that maybe, just maybe, I'd live. But Dr. Vasquez had said from the very beginning that if the cancer spread to my brain it would just be too dangerous to continue what ever would be going on at the time.

I am going to die.

For sure this time.