With You

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Don't you never trust, it's important
Ever heard of that, is it foreign to you?
Is a good time really boring to you?
You be on your Suge Knight, always trynna fight
You a bully or a lover
Are you my man or my big brother?
Baby somethings wrong with this picture
You make it hard to wanna stay with ya
I'm your lady, not a slave
You my nigga, not my master, I'll escape
Thinking who can I run to?
Got me looking for a new dude
I'm a good girl but you reach in
Bout to make me give you reason to be insecure
Why you gotta be so insecure? (so insecure)
When I did all I could do, but you be wanting more
(But you be wanting more and more and more and more and more and more and more)
And why you can't get up off my back?
And I can take a lot of shit, but I won't take that
(But I won't take that)
No, I won't take that no more
: Insecure by Jasmine Sullivan feat. Bryson Tiller

Jah P.O.V.
It's been damn near two weeks since I've seen Kyan King, and her conversation has been rather scarce. It actually annoys me very much. I got so used to having her in my life that now I'm literally craving her presence. I don't even remember ever feeling something similar to this besides when my mom first left me with my dad.

"PJ," my dad said. I looked up at him. "I was asking how your dinner tastes," he explained. Valentina looked at me expectantly seeing as she and Lisa had prepared the meal. I looked down at the plate of food that remained untouched.

"I haven't the slightest idea," I replied not in the mood to lie.

"You haven't eaten a bite. Is this how you normally behave at dinner with your family?" Aurora asked.

"We have established numerous times that I don't attend family dinners," I replied.

"You are correct. My apologies," she said. Two weeks ago, Aurora apologizing might have completely baffled me, but since our last "family" meeting, I've seen a more nurturing side of her. "Why aren't you eating?" She asked looking concerned.

"I don't have an appetite for some odd reason," I replied.

"Well you must eat something. Will you have your chef prepare you something when you go home?" She asked. "Or perhaps stop and pick up something to eat."

"He will be fine. He can go days without eating and still be fine. He's been that way since he was a child," my dad explained. She shot him a look.

"Why would a child go days without eating Principe Geremia Santiago!" She snapped.

"It's fine. Sometimes, I simply do not have an appetite," I interfered before Mama Bear could tear into Ole Boy's flesh.

"You do not to have protect him from me. He's going to pay for everything he and that wretched woman put you through. If we still weren't connected to her father, I'd have her head on a platter," Aurora stated.

"I don't think that's really necessary seeing as that I'm a grown man."

"I told you once before that your age isn't a factor. It never will be. I will do as I please when it comes to your welfare."

"Mamma," Valentina started.

"Do not talk to me girl." Valentina nodded. I exhaled. I'm annoyed. Funny how annoyance has been the only thing I've felt in the past years.

"I don't know how much longer I can take this," Santiago shook his head.

"Take what?" Three asked.