With You

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I don't have to think about
I never been in love
Well, I only dreamed about
I wondered what it was
But now I think I know
It's clear to me
You made me understand
I'm so proud to say I love you
I'm so proud to be your man, yes I am
I promise I'll never hurt you
I'll never make you cry, no
I promise I'll never hit you
Cross my heart and hope to die
'Cause I know I'll keep you safe
I'll keep you warm
I'll keep you satisfied
I'll be your sunshine in the morning
Be your everything at night
You told me what you wanted
I gave you what you need
I told you that I love you
Make it good for you and me
And I never make a promise
That I can't keep
That ain't me
: Never Make A Promise by Dru Hill

Kyan P.O.V.
           "It might do you some good if you actually spoke to the rest of the family," Kingsley said to me. I rolled my eyes as he got out of the car. He stood by the car waiting on Kadyn to get out.

"I don't like your boyfriend," Kadyn said. "I think he hurt you."

"He didn't. No one did."

"Someone did. I'm ten, but I'm not stupid," he replied.

"I never said that you were. I know you're a very intelligent child. Now get out of my car before dad comes out here to yell at me about his wife," I stated. He reluctantly got out of the car, and when they were in the house, I pulled off. I needed to go home. I needed to be alone.

              I need to think. What am I going to tell Jeremiah? What am I going to do about this baby? I want to be a mom. I think I want to be a mom. But how the hell am I supposed to do this? My mama is mad as hell at me, and so is her husband. There's no way they're going to even attempt to understand what I'm going through. KJ can't help because Layla is going to give birth any day now. Ky is focusing on saving his marriage, so what the hell am I supposed to do?

               I could call Melanie, but Melanie is with Tre. And the last thing I need right now is her hounding me down about Khalil. Khalil. Now that poses a problem. I wish I could just disappear for a while, then pop up like nothing happened. I wanna go home to my mama and daddy and climb in their bed and lay with them for hours and hours. I just want things to go back to the way it was before Jah walked into my life, minus Khalil.

                I pulled into my driveway and for the longest time, I sat in the car. I didn't wanna go in that house. My phone suddenly rang out of nowhere and tears welled up in my eyes. It was Jeremiah. I picked it up trying to swallow the lump in my throat.

              "Hello?" I answered.

             "Are you okay?" He asked. I shook my head no even though he couldn't see me.

              "Kind of," I replied.

              "I'm almost at your house," he told me.

             "Okay," I replied.

             "I love you," he said.

             "I love you too." I thought he would hang up the phone, but he stayed on the line and the silence oddly calmed me down. When he got here, he came up to my car and opened my door. Then we walked into the house.

              "Do you wanna talk about it?" He asked once we were cuddled up on the couch. I nodded. I have to tell him, and this is as good a time as any. I took a deep breath and I knew as soon as I spoke that I would start crying. I couldn't hold these tears any longer. "If you don't wanna talk about it, you don't have to."