Gone Forever

10 / Unstable

"I'm sorry Na In."

"Goodbye, Kim Na In."

The last two sentences were what I had remembered hearing before waking up.

I remember staring into the white walls, not knowing what had happened.

All I knew was that I had been in a car accident.

I saw the back of a tall, familiar figure leave the room.

"W-wait..." I tried to speak out, but my voice was too weak to say anything.

I could no longer see the person anymore.

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For the next few months, I had been in hospital trying to learn how to walk again.

The doctors said that my the area below my abdominal was paralysed.

I was heart broken.

Yoongi came everyday to help me learn to walk again,

and so did Hye Jin.

But the only person that was missing was Jungkook.

I didn't see him at all.

He never came to visit me.

I had important things to say to him.

I wanted to tell him how I felt.

I hated him,

but also didn't hate him at the same time.

I wanted to find him.

So I tried my best to walk again.

after about half a year of so,

I could finally walk again.

I missed out a lot on university,

so I had to do a lot of catching up.

But there was still no sign of Jungkook.

"Yoongi," I murmured. "Where is he?"

"Who?" He stared back at me.

"Jungkook."

"Why do you always ask that?" He raised an eyebrow.

"I'm worried about him." I said.

"He'll be back soon," he comforted me. "Don't worry too much, okay?"

I nodded at him,

not feeling any better.

Life soon became boring,

everyday was the same.

I met Yoongi and Hye Jin daily at university.

It was our third year of university that time.

Well, my second year because I had missed out on nearly a whole year.

I had moved in with Yoongi ever since I left the hospital.

It had been about 1 year since I moved in with him.

BTS was becoming more and more popular internationally and nationally.

Rumors of Jungkook leaving the group had been all over the news.

No one knew where he went.

He had left for so long,

every one was so worried about him.

His well being?

Was he eating well?

Where he was living?

How his life was?

And I,

was just living a normal life,

repetitive,

and boring.

Yoongi and my relationship wasn't as stable as before.

We had small bickers every now and then over the silliest things.

I realised that we hardly talked at home.

I didn't know what had changed our relationship.

"Hye Jin," I remeber saying. "My relationship with Yoongi isn't going as well as before."

"Hmm?" She had said, "it'll be fine, don't worry too much about it."

I listened to her advice, trying not to worry so much about it,

but nothing seemed to get better.

So instead,

I asked Yoongi.

"Why don't we talk as much anymore?"

"What do you mean?" He asked me.

"We hardly ever talk anymore," I stated. "What's happened with our relationship?"

"I'm just really busy," he sighed, "with school and my music career."

I looked at him and nodded,

sad that he hadn't given me a proper answer.

"Na In, stop worrying too much," He said as he pulled me in for a hug. "Things will get less busier after this, okay?"

"Okay." I had answered.

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something big is going to happen in the next chapter ! :D