Gone Forever

18 / Truth [END]

For beloved Na In /// September 29, 20XX.

How have you been, Na In?

I suppose that it's been a while now hasn't it?

Since my passing?

I hope you aren't surprised while you read this... But I have a lot to say to you,

and a lot truths to reveal to you.

But let me apologize first,

I'm sorry Na In.

I'm very sorry for everything that I hid from you.

The first time I met you, I was a fairly shy person. 

I'm glad you opened up to me. 

Your presence was able to brighten up my life.

I was always suffering deep down in my heart, in lots of pain. 

But I didn't want you to know... 

You stayed by me everyday, 

even when I pushed you away. 

I was foolish to do that, wasn't I? 

When I had become a member of BTS, I was so happy. I felt that I finally had some hope in life. 

Until I realised that your grades were dropping when you were with me. 

I had to keep you away from me so that your grades didn't fall any further. 

I knew how important school was for you, so I couldn't let myself be an obstacle to block the bright future that awaited for you. 

But after a while, you were getting closer with Jeongguk, and I didn't like that. 

You were smiling around him, you were hanging with him everyday, and you two did everything together. 

That was when I found out he had feelings for you, but for my sake, he kept it to himself. 

You know why I suddenly asked you to be my girlfriend? 

Because I couldn't see you and him together any longer. 

My heart was aching. 

So I decided to ask you out and I was so grateful when you accepted to be my girl friend. 

That was also the reason why Jeongguk had distanced himself away from you. 

I'm sorry about that. 

That girl Hye Jin? 

Jeongguk's girl friend? 

She threatened to be with him.