Gone Forever

7 / Kiss

I didn't understand why he never talked to me.

He always tried to avoid me wherever we were.

But I never gave up trying to find out the answer.

I didn't give up.

I couldn't give up.

I wouldn't give up.

No matter what.

During our second year of university, something strange happened. 

"Jeongguk?" I whispered, seeing him sitting on the stairs outside of a party we were just at.

He turned around and stared at me,

and quickly turned his face around.

"What are you doing here, Jeongguk?" I calmly asked him, afraid that he would tell me to leave again.

"What are you doing here?" He asked back at me, raising his eyebrows as he turned around.

He didn't tell me to leave.

I was crying from happiness inside.

"Why aren't you going back inside to the party?" I continued to ask him, "it's dark here."

"I just don't feel like it," he murmured, "just go."

Those words again.

'Just go.'

I've heard those words so many times.

I hated these two words.

"No, not until you tell me why you keep avoiding me." I stated, annoyed.

He sighed, "I can't tell you, so just go. I already have a girlfriend and you already have a boyfriend. Leave before they see us here."

"Jeongguk," I deeply sighed, "please."

I walked towards him slowly, wanting him to answer me.

"Don't come any closer." He warned me, but I didn't listen.

And instead,

He gently pulled me into his embrace,

and wrapped his hands around me,

and I felt his lips touch mine.

The kiss started off small, 

but then, 

it grew and grew, 

bigger and more intense. 

I don't think I've ever experienced a kiss that intense before. 

"Jeongguk," I mumbled, trying to break off our kiss. 

He didn't stop. 

His hands reached down to my waist. 

I couldn't understand him anymore. 

"Stop!" I panted out and tried to push him away from me, but I was too weak to do so. 

I felt tears running down my eyes. 

I couldn't stop him, and nor did he stop. 

"Jeongguk, please." I huffed out while hitting his back with all the strength I had left. 

He then broke off the kiss, shocked at what he had just done. 

"Uhh-hh, look Na In, I'm sorry!" He tried to explain, but I had run off, crying. 

I ran as far as I could. 

I didn't know how to feel. 

Terrible? 

That I had just kissed another guy that wasn't Yoongi? 

How would I explain to him? 

Tears continued to stroll down my weak face, 

I sat onto the bench nearest to me, 

crying, 

and crying nonstop. 

I was scared. 

I saw a blurry figure running to me, 

hoping that it would be Yoongi, 

but instead, 

it was him. 

"Leave me alone Jeongguk!" I cried out to him, wishing that he wouldn't come any closer. 

"I'm sorry Na In." He apolgized, "I didn't know what happened over there, I couldn't control myself!" 

"Why would you do that!" I shouted at him, "you have a girl friend! I have a boyfriend!" 

"I know, I know that!" Jeongguk shouted, "that's why I told you to go!" 

"All I wanted was to know why you've been avoiding me!" I cried. 

"Don't you get it?" He asked, "I have feelings for you!" 

"I've liked you ever since I met you!" 

"Why else would I be avoiding you?!" 

"Wh-what?" I stuttered with confusion. 

"Kim Na In, I like you." 

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DAMN. things are getting heated up lmfao.