Gone Forever

14 / Confrontation

Half a year went by,

Jeongguk and I had got closer with each other.

But it was really hard seeing Yoongi and Hye Jin together.

They were everywhere.

I saw them everyday at school, at coffee shops, at parks and even at public restrooms.

Yoongi never looked happy.

It seemed like he was changing so much.

The aura around him seemed much more gloomy.

He wasn't the person he used to be anymore.

He changed.

Just like when I first met him,

a gloomy and quiet boy.

It seemed like he also lost a lot of weight.

It always seemed like Hye Jin was the one trying to get Yoongi to listen to her for everything.

But none of that was my business anymore.

I saw him walking towards me one day during lunch time.

He was walking across the hallway to get to the cafeteria and I was walking to go and find Jeongguk across the cafeteria.

Well that was an awkward situation.

I remember quickly turning around so that we wouldn't have to confront each other, but instead he called out my name.

"Na In!"

I was really surprised.

"Hey..." I greeted him as I turned around. "What's up?"

"Hey." Yoongi greeted me back.

We both looked down at our shoes,

both placed into a very awkward situation.

Why did he have to call my name out?

Why did we have to meet each other here.

"How have you been?" He suddenly asked me.

His voice sounded hoarse.

I hesitated to answer.

Honestly, I haven't been well at all.

I've had countless numbers of sleepless nights.

Why?

All because of you, Yoongi.

All those nights where I was crying inside my bed sheets, crying because I missed you.

All those nights of Jeongguk helping me get over you.

I still don't know how I feel towards you.

It seems that half of me still tells myself that theres still some of you left in my heart.

But I really don't wish that to true.

I want to forget about you.

But you're always appearing everywhere.

You and Hye Jin.

Hye Jin is probably what makes everything worse.

She was my best friend.

So were you, Yoongi.

But both of you two, broke my heart.

Jeongguk's too.

"I've been fine." I lied to him as I faked a smile.

"That's good." He smiled back.

It looked like he tried to force that smile.

For some reason, he didn't look happy at all.

There seemed to be some sort of sadness that was surrounding him.

"Well..." I spoke out, "I kinda-"

"Na In!" Jeongguk interrupted.

"Oh!" I turned around, smiling as Jeongguk came running towards us.

"Why are you here with Na In?" Jeongguk questioned Yoongi, the smile on his face disappearing.

"Just asking how she is." Yoongi responed, much more confidently this time.

"You don't need to pretend like you care okay?" Jeongguk said to him, "you've hurt her so much already."

"Stop it Jeongguk." I stopped him as I nudged his arm.

I didn't want things to get worse.

"Come on let's go Jeongguk." I sighed to him as I dragged him arm with me.

I took one last glance at Yoongi's eyes before leaving,

the look in his eyes looked just like when I first met him.

A confused, and lost look in those innocent eyes of his.

Something just didn't seem right anymore.

I could tell that something wasn't right.

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"Something about Yoongi doesn't seem right." I told Jeongguk.

"What's wrong?" He asked me back.

"That day we met him in the hallway at school, remember?" I began to speak.

"Yeah, why?"

"I don't know, but Yoongi doesn't seem to be his usual self." I said. "Normally he wouldn't even talk to me."

"Are you saying that something bad's happened to him?"

"I'm not sure," I sighed. "But I know for sure that something wrong has happened."

"How can you be sure?" Jeongguk asked me.

Because I know him more than you do, Jeongguk.

Because I know that strange look in Yoongi's eyes which tell me that he's going through something terrible.

And because I know that when he acts that way, something is up with him.

"Because he suddenly said hi to me." I lied to Jeongguk, not wanting to hurt him with any of the actual reasons.

"What are you going to do about it?" Jeongguk asked me.

"Nothing," I lied. "His business has nothing to do with me anymore."

I think Jeongguk knew I was lying, but just pretended not to know.

"If you ever want me to help you with anything, you can always ask me," Jeongguk calmly spoke out. "I'll always be here for you, you know that right?"

"Yeah, thanks." I smiled at him.

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