The Other Side Of Me [Sequel to Faen's Child]

Chapter 22

Chapter 22

I awaken back in myself, surprised at what I had just done. Was it really possible? Had I really done it? By myself? No, it wasn’t only my work. This was Ashe’s and Raisy’s work.

I looked around at the people in the audience, the scared eyes on me. I looked at the people on the stage, the pairs of eyes that now meant the world to me.

“Ashe… I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have…… I’m so sorry…” I took to my feet slowly, unable to meet her eyes. I had failed Ashe. This was my fault –my fault that everyone was now captured.

My sister didn’t reply to my apology, but only remained silent, watching me. The anger at Rayen, the strength that I had used to take back the control over my body slowly drained away as silence dragged on. Maybe they were just pretending to trust in me, to make me fight back. Well, they had won. I had Rayen under control. Maybe I should just leave. It would be safer for all of them, as well as for me.

It seemed like a good idea to walk away now. At least Ashe knew that I still loved her despite my words. At least I knew she cared about me. At least I knew Raisy loved and trusted me to protect her from myself –from Rayen. At least I proved myself to her.

But I couldn’t stay.

I turned away and was beginning to walk off, back towards her, before Rayen decided to rush back into me. I wasn’t sure what more he would do –what he would make me do –but it was obvious to me that I was too powerful. I now held all elements, and if Rayen took over again… there was no guarantee that I would be able to fight back again.

“Where are you going, Raun?” Ashe’s voice, sharp and cold pierced through the silence like a cold bullet, hitting me and causing chills to run up my spine. Ashe must really be angry at me. Ashe must be totally disapointed in my inability to hold Rayen in. Yes, this was my fault. I shouldn’t have been so naïve to be taken in by Rayen. Stupid me. I should have guessed that Rayen was just making an illusion to decieve me. I had been at the truth, but a few tears from the illusions Rayin and a fake kiss had broken me down. Rayen was right –I was weak.

“I’ll find somewhere where no one can find me, Sister. If I feel Rayen trying to take over again…… I’ll… kill myself. That way, we can all be safe.” I refused to turn around, because I didn’t want to see Ashe’s disappointment. It was enough that I knew she was disappointed in me. I didn’t want to see it written so clearly on her face.

“You’re not going anywhere. I forbid you. As the Faen’s Child and as your sister.” Her voice was strong and firm, a tone of voice that said she wanted no nonsense from me.

“But it’s safer for us all if I leave. I don’t want to put anyone in danger. I might not be able to control Rayen again… He might return anytime…” I spun around, feeling a little incredulous. Did Ashe not see the need of my leaving? Surely she cared more about the welfare of the Faens first? I understood if she let me just leave like this, for the safety of the Faens. I wouldn’t blame her. It was a responsibility to was entrusted with. She was, after all, a Faen’s Child first before my sister.

“I will decide if it is safer if you leave or stay. And I say that you stay, Raun Alveron.” Her eyes were alight with determination, with strength  and so much insistence that I didn’t dare to say no.

“But I…”

“Come here.” She interrupted my words suddenly.

Unsurely, I took careful steps towards her, fearful of the gazes that stuck on me, condemning, waiting to put me down. I still didn’t meet her eyes –for I didn’t want to see the emotions running in those eyes. I didn’t want to see her disappointment at me.