Me: I'm so fucked up
Cara: what happened?
Me: I just thought the one who's texting me is Kim Taehyung lmao
Me: I got easily fooled wow
Cara: why did you even thought that it was him texting you?
Me: its kinda long story but fine i'll tell you
Me: so I was in the locker earlier to get all of my books
Me: because ya know, damn finals is near
Me: and I was texting him, you know the texter who I still dont know whats his name
Me: and I told him to come out where he was hiding. So he texted me 'fine' and I was like "where are you?!"
Me: he said I'm here and I'm like where?!
Me: and right after that, someone spoke up behind me and said "here".
Me: AND I WAS LITERALLY SHAKING BECAUSE FINALLY HE'S GONNA REVEAL HIMSELF
ME: AS I SLOWLY TURNED AROUND
Me: AND IT WAS KIM TAEHYUNG OKAY IT WAS HIM
Me: after a few seconds of staring at each other, while me talking to myself that i cant believe that it was him texting me
Me: he said "here" again.. And lifted up this damn book. It was my book
Me: I FUCKING DROPPED MY BOOK WITHOUT NOTICING
Me: AND IT WAS ALL ABOUT MY BOOK WHY HE SAID THE FUCKING "HERE" IN THE FIRST PLACE
Me: AND HE'S NOT THE FUCKING TEXTER
Me: I THOUGHT IT WAS HIM FOR A FEW SECONDS
Me: IM SO HURT BECAUSE IT GOT MY HOPES UP
Me: I hate myself
Me: kill me now
Cara: wow
Cara: that was fucking horrible
Cara: what did you say to the texter?
Me: I told him I need space
Cara: how mUCH SPACE DO YOU NEED? YOU GUYS ARE TEXTING? OKAY?
Cara: T-E-X-T-I-N-G!
Me: wow you're rlly helping the situation :-----)
Me: I didnt rlly tell him that I need space okay
Me: I told him that I cant talk to him and I did block him so I can't recieve any messages from him and I think that considered as a "I need space"?
Me: he made my hopes up for how many times
Me: but this is the worse
Me: I'm so hurt
Me: like real hurt
Cara: I understand
Me: no you dont!
Cara: ugh why r u so dramatic
Cara: you should let the texter explain first
Cara: or atleast give him another chance
Me: I don't know
Cara: dont be such a stubborn ass!
Me: I'm still disappointed okay? I can't talk to him, atleast not now
Cara: why are you so upset when you found out that taehyung is not the one whos texting you?
Cara: don't tell me you like him?
Me: WTF!?¡
Cara: what?
Me: I am upset bc I thought the texter gonna reveal himself!
Me: I am NOT upset that I found out taehyung is not the one who's texting me!
Cara: chill girl I was kidding :D lmao
Me: UGH
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Kim Taehyung
Fuck.
I am the worse person in the world.
I thought I am ready to tell her. I thought it was about time to admit. But there was something inside me that made me not to do it. Because I was so nervous. I think I was just carried away. And so I made up the situation and pretended I was just giving her the book.
I'm a fucking coward. Why did I even do that?
Now she hates me. I made her cry because of my stupidness.
I wanna curse myself.
How can I talk to her if she block me? How can I apologize? How can I sure if she's okay or how she's doing?
Aish so many question that cannot be answer.
I ran my fingers through my hair and slightly pulled it in frustration.
I have to find a way.
I made this problem, so I have to fix it alone.
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I'm sorry I didn't update for a few weeks bc writers block ugh. :---( Btw pls comment what you think ily all. Mwuaps!! <3
