When Everything Burns {Mianite/CaptainFoxx} ✔

Chapter 7: Loved

Chapter 7: Loved

***Finally! Ok, so this is where I edit the storyline of the one-shot. It's a sizable event, so I still highly suggest that you go read the original! P.S my edition has a short possible trigger warning, so look out for the (bold words). They indicate the start and end.***

     The second night staying at Jordan's was much worse than the first. The nightmares didn't stop, and I couldn't sleep, even with Franklin cuddled up next to me. I missed Tucker. He was a jerk and a cheater, but I still missed him. 'Maybe I should just go home. Jordan's probably getting tired of me anyways, and Tucker did say that he was sorry. Maybe I Just overreacted. He still loves me, right?' I threw on my fox hoodie, and slipped on my sneakers. I kissed Franklin on the head one last time before I left the room as quietly as I could. I creeped down the stairs, and slipped out the doors.

     It was really cold outside, and extremely dark. This isn't going to be easy. There was heavy fog, and if I fly I won't be able to see anything. 'I should just fly so I won't crash and die.' I began to walk in the direction of Tucker's dojo.

     'I wonder if he's still awake. I hope so.' I started thinking about what I'd say to him when I got there. '"Hi, I forgive you for absolutely crushing my heart?'' I sighed.'Why am I even going back? He cheated on me twice. I shouldn't go back.' I stopped where I stood, letting my thoughts consume me. (Trigger warning?) 'What if he doesn't accept me? What if he stopped loving me? Did he ever love me in the first place? Has he only been pretending, only accepting me because I was the only girl around? I mean, he hasn't had a shred of faithfulness since there have been other woman around. Who am I kidding, he doesn't care about me. No one does. Why should they? I'm useless. I can't do anything right. I'm intolerable. Tom does nothing but make fun of me, Wag ignored me, Tucker acts like I'm this huge liability, and even Jordan couldn't wait to get away from me. There's no point in even living if no one will love me.' (Don't worry! It's over!)

     Finally, I couldn't take it. I fell to the ground. My mind felt so cloudy, and my vision started to darken and blur from tears. I shut my eyes. 'I should have stayed with Jordan.' I felt a hand wrap around my arm and jerk me up on my feet. I cracked an eyelid to see who it was.

     It was Jordan. "We should go. Can you walk?" He asked. I shook my head, trying to formulate words. Everything felt so numb. Suddenly, I felt like I was floating. I sighed happily at the feeling. It felt nice. I hugged the cloud I was floating on. It was warm and soft, making me feel happy. The cloud stopped moving, and I groaned in protest. I wanted to sleep forever on the cloud. The warmth left me, and I wanted to cry. I think I actually started to cry, as I felt tears falling on my cheeks. 'Why did the cloud leave me?'

     "No, don't cry. It's okay. Everything's okay." I heard a voice trying to comfort me, but I didn't care about it's words. I just wanted my cloud back. I wanted to feel safe and warm again.

     "Come back..." I whimpered. 'Please come back, cloud. I want to be happy again.' It came back, and it was even softer and warmer than before. I hugged it tightly, afraid that it would leave me again. I drifted off on my cloud. It felt nice to be okay again.

     Falling asleep in someone's arms is something I've grown used to. It's just that, y'know, I've always woken up in Tucker's arms. But not this time. I woke up in warmer, softer arms, and instead of smelling the disgusting cologne that Tucker always wore, I smelled lavender. Lavender, the smell of the sheets that I'd been sleeping on for days. I loved that small. It made me feel safe, like I was back home with my mom in my old room in my old bed. My mom always used that kind of fabric softener. She said that it was the best kind, and that anybody who used it was clever, because most people don't know that lavender makes you feel safe.