Summer love #Wattys2016

chapter 28

NISHA POV:

After  eating the only packet of cheetos we had both of us stood there accompanied by the most awkward silence between us.This was the first time I hugged him after years and I could still feel the warmth even though I pulled away quickly.I felt his eyes gazing at me for a moment and when I turned to look in his direction he turned away and looked at the shining moon above us.This reminded me of the moments we spent together basking in the chillness of the moon wrapped in a single blanket whispering sweet nothings and cracking senseless jokes.I want it again,I want us to be a family again for the first time after seeing him in London.But I think its too late for that.I looked at his blue eyes which were searching for something in the surroundings.Eventhough he made a cheeky comment when I hugged him,I still felt that I need to say sorry,I dont know why.

"Sorry"I whispered and he looked at me with his one of his eyebrow raised.

"What for?"he jumped on the hood of the car and sat on it,his legs dangling down.

"For hugging you?"It came out more as a question than an apology.He shook his head and smirked"Told ya na,you want me that badly''

"No Seb lets be serious this time.I want to have a serious talk,like matured adults and not like the playful kids we used to be,just for  once"I pleaded with my eyes for him to say yes and he nodded.

''I know I did the wrong thing Seb and you had all the rights to be rude with me,but today when I hugged you,I wanted the warmth that Ive yearned for the past  five years,the intimacy between us always makes me want it more and I want us to be back together,not for the sake of Mia but also for the sake of us.I know this thought is crazy but I cant help it Seb,I still fall for you everyday I look at you and the rest is your decision.Take all the time you want and decide.Together or not,I love you everyday"I looked at him making myself strong and not wanting to cry in front of him.

"Nisha"he told after a great pause looking at me "I just dont think this will work out ,you know us trying the relationship thing again''he let out a dry chuckle"I mean every relationship is based on trust and I trusted you Nisha but now its like,all my trust for you has drained out,I just don't know why,maybe its because you hid such a  great thing from me.I was heartbroken Nisha,when you left and no one was able to mend those pieces and now I think its too late for you to mend my broken pieces together.I know the intimacy between us was the best thing ever and it brought out many good things like Mia,but think practically Nisha,Us working out will never happen again,I am scared it will end up again with both of us being heartbroken,so let me tell this straight out to you,I am totally scared,Call me a coward I don't care,Make yourself  a life with someone whom you trust deeply Nisha and I will be happy for you"

"Let me tell you something Seb,even I was scared to tell you all this but didn't I tell you?Thats how it works,you should try the things which scares you a lot so that you can stay  fearless.But its fine,you made the decision that you don't want me anymore and you know what is my decision?Fight for you and make you realize that I am worth it.That I still love you every moment in my life and I will do anything to prove that to you.Moving on for me is a stupid decision when I have my soulmate right in front of me"I looked at the ground and wiped my tears.I no longer felt the need to stand here so I sat  inside the car hugging my knees close to my chest and felt the pathetic tears falling from my eyes which made my eyes droopy.

The next morning I woke up and took a moment to realize where I was.I opened the door of the car and saw Seb pouring something into the gasoline tank.His eyes flickered to me and he rubbed his hands in his jeans.

"I got some gasoline today morning from a vehicle driver.We can go home by afternoon if we start now"he told looking at nowhere in particular.I nodded at him and got inside the car.He put the key into the ignition and the vehicle roared to life.I closed my eyes again for a nap but still couldn't get his words off my head.He was scared,to try out a relationship just because I broke his trust.I promised myself that I would make him fall in love with me again,no matter what it takes.

We reached home after two long hours of driving and I went straight into my flat not noticing that Seb was following me.I opened the door to see Harry and Mia on the floor sprawled on duvets and pillows.Mia was peacefully sleeping on Harry while he was holding her like the most precious thing in this world.I felt my lips automatically twitch into a small smile.I bent down and gave Harry a small pat.He woke up rubbing his eyes and pulled Mia closer.

"Oh sorry Nisha,I must have slept singing to Mia.I am a horrible babysitter"he blabbered.

"Oh shut up Harry,I saw the way you were holding her.You would make an amazing father one day,not a horrible babysitter.I must be the one to say sorry for troubling you.Pass Mia to me and go sleep in the guest room.She must have worn you out,that like trouble maker"I picked up Mia and stood up to see Seb standing there holding my shoes.

"Left it at the car''He held it out to me and I placed it in my shoe rack .When he was about to leave Harry called Seb.

''Umm...can you stay here for a few minutes.I want to talk something to both of you guys"he had a serious look on his face.Seb nodded and sat on the couch while I sat on the opposite end of the couch and Harry took the loveseat.

" I want to talk about something really serious and its about Mia.I just want you guys to listen to what I say first and then reply''

"Go on "I smiled.

'' So the thing is,Mia thinks that Nisha is not spending enough time with her and she also thinks that you might start hating her Nisha.This is not good for a five year old child.She thinks that you both are always fighting and you never care about her.A child should never think about their this way,which is the first step for depression.It affects her a lot Nisha.Im not blaming you for anything,you have raised such a wonderful child raising her up as a beautiful princess.Just stop fighting like small children in front of her and act like adults.Take her somewhere out,take time from your work and spend time with her.You dont have to worry about work,Meera and I will take care of that.Play with her together.You both are high school sweethearts for Gods sake,understand that.If you dont like each other that much at least act like you do.Dont do dumb things and spoil her life.Thats all I could say,the rest is upto you guys"he stood up and left.Before closing the door he looked back at Seb"And I took care of your child as you told Seb,she has baked cupcakes for you guys"he shut the door and left.

I looked at the floor and ran a hand through my now greasy hair.Mia thinks she hates me now.I am a horrible mother.

 ''Did you listen to him?"I looked at Seb and bit my lips hard."Atleast act like you like me,I will live with that.Im becoming the horrible one to everybody now."I buried my face in my hands and started shaking.My silent sobs were the only thing that echoed the whole house.

"I will try"my head shot up to look at Seb who just muttered these words."I will try anything to make my daughter happy."He stood up and went to Mia's room and I followed him like a lost puppy.He kissed Mia's head and mumbled an "love you" to her.I silently watched them sitting on the opposite side of the bed thinking how nice it would be for this to happen everyday and Im sure I will make this true someday.Us being a family.........