I wish I said to you

To hold on or to let go

I was the one that killed you
And I'm sorry it turned out this way
if I had known my touch was lethal,
My breath none but Poison,
I maybe would've stopped.

I was the one that killed you
And they all so blindly blame you,
my faking words, left your thickening mask -
I didn't know you were hurting.

I was the one that killed you
I practically pushed you off that fucking ledge
well, I guess -
It might aswell have been me.
'Cause I never saw your cries for help,
Or maybe I just didn't want to

I was the one that killed you
I'm sorry that I didn't try harder,
That I didn't just tell you just what you meant to me,
Or asked if you were okay -
If only once, I had said something once,
Maybe you'd be still here, in my arms.

I was the one that killed you
I wish I could see your face just once,
I'm scared I'm going to forget.
I'm beginning to understand, and ;
Becoming incessantly scared like you,
And I don't know how I can live -
With this raging, pounding, reeling guilt.

I was the one that killed you
I think about you every moment of the day
I wish that we could trade places,
you, thriving, instead of me, dying.
I didn't show my love you,
And now it's all I can think to do,
While I'm trying to piece myself together.

I was the one that killed you,
And although they all like to say-
It: is because of you,
I was the one that killed me too.

K.G