I wish I said to you

Alone

My switch flicks in an instant,
the sun turns to grey
the clouds appear quickly,
All the light goes away.
I'm swallowed in this empty space,
Consumed with nothing but black,
my screams and cries are silent,
They echo loudly through the walls.
Just a minute,
And the world I knew flips.
One second full of laughter,
Surrounded by smiles and faces.
A second goes by and I'm stuck here,
Alone in my thoughts,
alone with my problem,
Attached, so tight,
to my disease.
I watch from a distance,
My absence made no difference,
They still fill the room with laughter,
A light travelling further away.
why can't they feel it too?

I'm stuck in this black hole,
All it does is drag me in,
No matter how I kick or scream,
It will never let me out.
No more fighting,
Just sitting in tears,
How the hell did I get here?

K.G