Darcy. {cth}

N.1

I didn't know what to say. I just nod. Which seems very rude, but what else is there to do? It was hard even telling him I like him, let alone say I love you. I didn't know if I loved Calum. It was weird.

It's only been like a month and a half. You can't fall in love that fast. Can you? He was drunk. He didn't know what he said. He won't remember. I mean when your drunk you don't have control over what you're saying.

"Okay, night." Is all I say and turn around with Calums' arms still wrapped around me.

(Thursday)
(My dorm)
(10am)

I wake up with Calum arms still around me. I turn around to see him. I took in his beauty. He has a sharp jaw line, he was very tan, a little more then me but most of all he looked so peaceful. It was like I could touch him.

"I can feel you looking Darcy." He chuckles with his eyes still closed.

"Ah... uh... sorry?" I blush. He opens his eyes touching my lips with his thumb.

"You're so cute when you blush. The thing is your cheeks are always red so it's hard to tell when you're blushing." He laughs.

"No they are not," I defend sitting up, "I just put on blush." I lie. I don't really put on make up.

"Yeah sure dar, whatever let's you sleep at night." He gets up about to walk out of my room.

"Wait!" I shout and he turns around. "Well you're like half-naked and Jasmin is probably getting ready for school- oh crap! My first class already stated!" I let out a dramatic sigh.

"Calm down. We'll just skip today and don't act like you haven't seen Luke half-naked when he spends the night," He smirks, "All eyes on me remember."

"Oh fine. She's probably already gone." I say getting up.

"Let's make pancakes!" He jumps running out of the room.

What a child.

"I'm a waffle kinda girl," I say jumping on the couch. Calum gives me a playful dirty look and shakes his head, "Whale then. I'll just turn on some Brady bunch."

Calum comes back with a plate full of waffles and two cups of chocolate milk. I felt so much more happy this way. It was crazy. I liked that someone had the same interests I did. I could say that I would love to spend my life with Calum.

"Wow Greg was such a cool bitch." Calum laughs, referring to the guy on the show. I laugh at how childish he looks, with his month full of waffles.

"Calum, I know we've been having fun but we need to talk," I speak up. He looks over and me turning off the TV, then he nods for me to proceed, "Well last night you said someone got cancer in your family. I was wondering if you wanted to talk about it?"

"Yes I do. My sister Mali got breast cancer. She was the only person in my family who cared enough about me. It was nice to have someone... I don't know... care? Now she has a high risk of dying at 40 years of age." He poors out to me.

"Well I'm sorry. I don't wanna be that friend who says sorry all the time about stuff they can't change and I know you don't want pitty," I take in a deep breath, "I know that if that one person who cares about you leaves there is always one more."

"One more what?" He asks taking my hands.

"One more person who cares. Calum I care. I love the way you're not afraid to open up to someone. You're looking for help, you want it, you want to feel loved. I envy that about you. I'm the kind of person who wants to be cared for but doesn't have the strength to poor out my soul." I tell Calum as he nods at my every word.

He understood. I knew he did. Maybe he was in the same boat as me. It made me feel like I wasn't stubborn for not telling people about me. I mean after all it is my business.

"I know how it feels Darcy. I was the same way you just have to learn to be able to open up. I'll help you." He smiles.

"Lastly, I don't know if you remember but you were kinda drunk. I mean you probably don't remember but uh, you kinda uh-"

"Spit it out Dar!" Calum laughs playfully shaking me.

"Okay, okay," I giggle, "You said you love me. Do you remember that?"

"Yup." He says popping the "p".
"So uh did you mean it?" I ask.

"Yes I did." He says with a smile on his face.
"Are you mad I didn't say it back?" I ask.

"No, you love what you love. I would never force you to love me." He shrugs. He acted so sure of himself, so sure that he loved me.

"You have a girlfriend." I mumble.
"Mmmm," He hums, "I don't think so."

"What?"

"Yeah broke up with her yesterday." He says turing back on the TV.

"I didn't know that." I say.
"Sorry Darcy, but yes I did. I'm glad I did. Now all my love is going to you." He says.

"Why would you love me?" I ask.

It was a real question. I didn't know why people did. I didn't see it. I wanted to ask this to Levi but I didn't have a chance to. I didn't really like the feeling it, it was like tons of pressure was being put on you to keep that person loving you.

"Don't ask me that." He scoffs actually seeming upset about the question.

"I really don't know why." I defend. "I mean I don't open up to you, dont you want someone to open up to you?"

"Why don't you open up to me Darcy?"

I was actually thinking about it. Maybe I will open up to Calum Hood. My dad would want me to talk about it.

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