Two Reflections (Alren)

Chapter 16

I don't even know how much it lasted. Probably 10 or 15 seconds; but I know for sure they were the sweetest and most intense seconds of my whole live.

I pulled off and looked at Ally. She was frozen; there were no signs at all of whether she liked or not. My heart was about to explode. I've never felt so much before.

I glanced at her once again, and before she could freak out or whatever, I left.

Yes, I am the one who actually freaked out first. I made my way to the front door, grabbed my car keys and got in my car; I wanted to feel safe.

I just don't want to deal with all the drama now; I just know I need sometime for myself.

I looked at myself in the rear mirror; I swear my heart is gonna come of off my chest any minute. Oh my God! I just kissed Ally. Fucking finally! I can't believe I was brave enough to kiss her. I giggled.

The smile drawn in my face is huge; I must look like a fool. I rested my hands on my face and bit my lip. Yeah, that lip that was between Ally's lips not that long ago. I touched it recalling the beautiful moment.

I tightened my fists. "Yeah!" I celebrated it like the most important homerun in the history.

I went back to reality, and realized I had to get out of there before Ally even thinks of getting out and looking for me. I started the car and went away.

Ok, I just wanna be calm. I don't know where the fuck I'm driving but I need to calm myself. My mind tells me to stop the euphoria I'm feeling, because sooner or later I'm gonna have to face Ally. And face the unavoidable, which I don't even want to mention right now. Then, my heart is telling me to enjoy the moment, to keep daydreaming about Ally and me. You know, at least I kissed her, at least I have this beautiful memory of her and I; no matter what happens next, the only thing that matters is that I kissed the person I'm in love with.

Wait....she did kiss back, didn't she? I mean, she didn't run away and stood there, and I swear if I'm not hallucinating she did kiss me too. I don't wanna get my hopes up, I know how Ally is; whatever, maybe she got intrigued about what I said and wanted to test it. Fuck it! We kissed who cares about anything else?

I drove to the beach. That's were fate lead me. I think I chose to go there because being born and raised in Miami makes me an ocean lover. It always makes my mind clearer to sit and look at the ocean; listening to the sound of the waves makes me relax.

3 hours later, I was again at our apartment's front door. I parked and got out. I got inside the house.

No one was there at the living room; Norminah's door was open but their room was empty. Then I stepped into my room, which wasn't empty at all.

Ally was sitting in her bed with her laptop I guess watching something with her headphones on. Soon she took them off when she saw me entering the room.

"Hey" She greeted.

I don't know what is about to happen. I'm scared as fuck I don't wanna lose Ally forever. Where are Normani and Dinah? Did she tell them?

"Hey Ally, before you say anything let me explain myself, Ok?" 

I didn't let her time to say anything and I carried on. "Listen, I messed up. I know, I know I did. I know there's this line of privacy and intimacy that someone shouldn't cross and I went miles away from it, as I always do with everything. I just wanted to say I didn't mean to bother you at all or to offend you...or..." I pulled my hair backwards nervously. "I just wanted to prove a point, and I went too far....but I'm sorry Ally, I just don't want you to freak out or to act different around me. You know, I've been practicing this whole speech the way back home; and let me tell you it was way easier to say it when you weren't actually there" I sighed. "I don't know what can I do to make it up to you....I didn't mean to be invasive...I just need you in my life Ally, I don't want to lose your friendship, it won't happen again, it was stupid, Ok? I do stupid shit all the time when I get heated up....Can you just say something back? Cause otherwise I might lose it again"