My Best Friends Brother

You Can Never Talk To Him Again!

Kelsee's POV:

I wake up some time around noon. My body aches from head to toe. My thoughts run wild.

I love Leo. He makes me feel safe, and loved. But I also love Jason. He makes me feel protected and he is very supportive. Both these amazing guys I love and I don't even deserve either one of them.

I turn to look at Jason's sleeping face. I know I shouldn't be in bed with him, but it just somehow seems right.

I turn on my back and lift up my shirt. I stare at my belly. I just know I am pregnant. I can just feel it. I rub my stomach and I sorta feel at peace. I am scared to death, but I know I have friends that will help me through it.

I just feel so selfish. My poor best friend is in the hospital and I have only visited her a few times. My date with Leo seems forever ago. Everything just seemed to go by in slow motion.

It's November 7th a Sunday afternoon. It has been one month since Brian took something from me that I can never get back and exactly 23 days since Leo and I got together and Lydia's accident.

I can't leave Leo. I can't hurt someone else, but do I really love Leo? I start to second guess myself. Was Leo just a rebound for Jason? Leo is such a sweet gentle guy, I don't have the heart to break up with him. Why am I such a push over? Why can't I fully get the whimpy girl out of my system?

I am a selfish person. Am I using Leo?

Jason's stirs a wake.

"Hey."

He stretches. "Hey Kel."

"So about that doctor."

He flexes his arm. "I already wrote the number down and it's on your desk."

I smile at him. "Thank you Jason."

He nods. "So what are you doing for the rest of the day."

I get quiet for a second. Should I tell him I have plans with Leo or just make up something?

"Actually Leo and I have plans this evening."

He looks upset. I know he is, but I can't just breakup with Leo for Jason. That isn't how it works.

"Oh okay, well I will let you go. I have to go, you know, do stuff."

Jason gets up from the bed and puts his shoes on.

He turns around to look at me.

"Bye Kelsee. Have a nice night." He walks out.

My heart breaks. He called me Kelsee. He just walked out without me giving him an answer. I want to run after him, I want to tell him how I feel, I want him to know I love him, but I can't move.

I hear the front door open and then close. It was like the door slammed in my face. If I am with Leo, I need to stay with him. If I am pregnant, then I will love this baby as much as I can. Everything else in between won't matter.

I slip out of bed and walk over to my desk. I pick up the piece of paper with the numbers on it and plug them into my phone.

I take a deep breath and press call.

I wait until the third ring when some picks up.

It's a very soft, but comforting voice. "Dr. Bank's office. How can I help you?"

My breath gets caught in the back of my throat. I collect my thoughts. "Yes, I would like to set an appointment for an ultrasound. As soon as possible please."