Notes and Kisses

Diecinueve

Diecinueve

I followed Kyle's advice to talk to the two guys. It wouldn't be that hard, right? But I guess, I thought of it too soon because now that they were here - at my house, in the living room where I banned mom and dad to come unless I was finished with the talk - I couldn't say anything but smile at them. Aaron and Stephen weren't talking to each other. Had they been doing this since that confession? 

             I cleared my throat. "Hi," I started, "you see, there's something I want to say to both of you." They just nodded. Would they be like this for the entire time? 

             I thought of this thing for three days after my little tour with Kyle. It needed time before I could really tell who I liked the most. And now, I knew who that person was. There's something I had to do, though. I don't think either of the two guys would like it. 

             "You are both here because you told me that you like me," I said, looking from Aaron to Stephen. 

             "Carter, I love you. I don't just like you," Aaron blurted, annoyed. 

             "Yeah, yeah. Why are you so annoyed, anyway? You've been so grumpy since you got here." 

             "Isn't it obvious? This guy is with me." He jabbed a thumb towards Stephen. 

             I smiled at Stephen. He's mature enough not to take on Aaron's retort towards him. "Stephen's not doing anything to you, you know," I told him. Aaron's being an ass again. 

             "It's okay, Carter," Stephen said with a small smile. 

             "Oh, brother. Don't be such a pussy, Bryant. We both know that you're the main reason why Carter-" 

             "Aaron," I cut him off. He was bringing up the confession incident again. All the while he was still thinking about it? "It's all in the past, Aaron. Why can't you just move on? I forgave you both so there's no need to blame one another." 

             He didn't say anything to me. Our gazes were locked between us but then he stood up and walked through the door, slamming it when he got out. 

             I ran a hand to my face. What was his real problem? 

             "I guess, it's just the two of us now. What are you going to say?" Stephen asked. He was smiling at me. Could I do this? He had been great to me. Maybe he ignored me for three years but this was my chance. I had my chance to be his girlfriend. This was what I had been waiting for; for him to see me as someone else and not just an invisible girl. 

             "Stephen, whatever happens, please know that you are a great guy and I really, really am lucky to have you in my life," I said, staring at his blue eyes. They were so lovely to look at, just like the sea. 

             "So, you're like choosing..." he stopped, but waiting for me to continue what he was going to say. 

             I shook my head. "I'm not choosing anyone. That's why I wanted to both of you to be here. So I can explain everything and not to repeat it again. It's not that I don't want to repeat it but, I might forget some points if I say this to you guys, one by one." This was hard. He was smiling but you can see that he was sad as well. Why did I even have to experience having two guys liking me? 

             "I know what you mean. But Carter, don't you think you're slipping a chance here? I know you like me since freshman year, what happened to that?" he asked. He was hurt and I think, anytime, he would walk out as well.