Break My Heart Again(Becstin Fan-Fic)

Lies

******Becky's P.o.v.********

After the whole thing with Austin and Camila, she begged me to help her get him back. I hesitated at first because I still had feelings for him but I did it anyway... why? I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE! I guess it's because I know that he's still in love with her and that she made him happy, the thing he doesn't feel when he's with me. I feel like they belong together for some strange reason.

"Becks! Are you listening to me?" Maria asks waving her hand in front of my face.

"Huh? Oh yeah. I was listening." I lied.

"Mhm, sure you were. What was I talking about?" She asks as we cross the street.

"Global warming?"

"Not even close. What's wrong... you can't still be bummed about what had happened are you?"

"Maria, it's not that simple! You know I would delete my feelings for Austin if feelings had a delete button, I would have done that a long time ago to stop the pain I'm feeling right now." I sighed.

"Yeah.. I know. It's just that it sucks seeing you like this, you don't deserve this happening to you." She says.

"I know, but can't do anything about it just watch it happen." I said watching a red car make a u-turn, she just sighs and kept quiet till we got to her house.

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"So, I got some news." Maria says.

"Ugh, do you think I can take anymore?" I ask putting a pillow over my face.

"This time it's about Kassie."

"What's wrong now?" I asked slowly putting the pillow over my face. Maria sighed and said,

"She's devastated but more angry than anything."

"I told her, you know I did."

"Yeah, I know." She says.

"That's not even all of it though... Camila wants to fight Kassie for Austin."

"What the hell? I've been in love with him way longer than they have but you don't see me fighting girls for him. It's not worth ruining my high school career over a guy, who I probably won't even spend the rest of my life with." I scoffed.

"Right! She doesn't understand that and neither does Camila, obviously. I'm glad that you're not like them."

"I'm not that dumb, you know I'm in love with him and I'd do anything to keep him happy even when he's hurting me." I sigh.

"I know... I hope he stops hurting you soon." She says.

"Same here." I heard my phone go off and received a text from my mom.

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'What time should I pick you up? -Mom'

'7:00 p.m.'

'Alright, better be ready when I get there. -Mom'

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"Hey... Maria." I say.

"What's up?" She asks pulling a chocolate bar from her backpack.

"Since I've known you for 3 long years.. I think it's time to tell you my full story." I said taking a deep breath. Her eyes widened as she took a bite of the chocolate,

"Like from the very beginning?"

"Yeah.."

"Alright.. take your time."

"The first 4 years of my life my parents treated my sister like a princess even though I was the oldest, they were very abusive towards me. My dad is an alcoholic and when I was about 6 years old.. I was sexually harassed by my grandmother's 2nd husband. While that went on for about a year or so, he stopped when he got to my sister. Till this very day I still hate myself for letting him get to her, I'm the responsible one since I was the only one who knew about it! I didn't know what to do, I had this bad feeling that if I said anything he would hurt us even more!" I began to cry.

"It's okay, Rebbeca you can stop there." She says feeling bad.

"N-No, I need to tell you this because you need to know what had happened between Kassie and I. The reason why we aren't much friends now." I said wiping the tears away from my face.

"I thought I could trust her with this information, and since we've gotten close over two years.. I finally decided to tell her. A few weeks later, she told me that her brother found out about my secret past and wanted to reach out to my parents to let them know what happened to me. I quickly reacted and couldn't come up with anything else but to lie to her, I told her that I made it all up and that I just said that because I didn't want her to feel bad about the way her life was. She grew angry with me and told me what a liar I was and never wanted to speak to me again, it was okay though because I just saved my own life. Even if it meant losing her... it was hell the 4 months later she didn't talk to me because I knew I lost a very close friend." I sighed.

"That makes so much sense now... that's the reason why she doesn't trust you much now." Maria says.

"Yeah, and to know that everything I told her about my past was true then I had to lie to her saying that it wasn't. It was a horrible feeling, I wanted to just shoot myself repeatedly."

"Hey, but what would have happened if your parents were to know?" She asks.

"It would give them more of a reason to beat me, I would have disgusted them and I would have been more useless to them than anything."

"They wouldn't want to hear my side of the story, they would just automatically label me as a slut who wanted attention."

"Wow."

"Moving on," I sighed once again.

"When I reached about 7 or 8, I tried killing myself by jumping into my parents' friend's pool without a float. I almost drowned.. too bad that the friend of their's jumped in and saved me. The next thing I did was suffocate myself with a pillow over my face."

"Why did you want to kill yourself?! You were like 7! People that young wouldn't even think about suicide!" She says.

"Not me. I didn't even know what suicide was.. all I wanted to do was take away the constant pain I was in." Maria sighs and looks down at her pillow.

"Anyway, what stopped me was my grandmother walking in on me in the process of doing so. She quickly took the pillow off of my face and cried telling me that she cares about me. I had to promise her that I won't do it or think of it ever again... sadly, that didn't last long though. A few years later.. things got worse, and I fell deeper into depression."

"Rebbeca, it's really okay. You don't have to keep going with this, please." She says.

Beep.

Beep.
"I'll finish up later my mom is outside waiting for me anyway, if I take too long she'll come screaming her head off. See you tomorrow." I said before I left.

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I'll update more later. I'm sorry chipmunks it's been a while again, haha. Well here I am again. Vote and Comment! Sorry her story was too long and there's more to come but ayye it will get better! <3