Forever Starts Now | Z.M.

Thirty Days (Part 2)

Give me all of this
Give me all of you
No falling in
Don't need no proof

Nikita's POV

"I feel like a stranger in my own house!"

I chuckled; nonetheless I too ignored him, and still hugged Marley to myself. Ever since I had stepped into the kennel, all the attention of Zayn's pets had been on me, they were barely even acknowledging his presence. They were just so cute, I couldn't get enough of them. How did he manage to stay without them?

"Come on boy, its dinner time. Hey, come on boy!"

I let go off Marley and he, and the other dogs rush towards Zayn, who by now had laid the food down. As I washed up, I kept my eyes on them; it's like Zayn had been taken into another world. He smiled so much more and you could practically see the stress flying out of him.

As they finish eating he takes them back inside the kennel, and walks towards me. "They are awfully cute!" I exclaim just as he takes my hand.

He nods his head, and wraps his arms around me. When I gaze up at him there are frown lines on his forehead. I trace them away with my fingers, giving him a questioning look.

"I'm just thinking- It's like, this is nice right? With you and them, and me! Like alone, you know? I like the quiet, this quiet. It's like a part of me, but then like- I just want to stay in sometimes, like- be myself for a bit, then I think, maybe this side of me won't be as welcomed."

I stared at him, unable to utter a single word for a reply. That was way more than just deep, there was definitely something going on with him. I didn't want to pry, but I couldn't let this go either. I was crazy worried about him.

"What's going on Zayn, this is the second time this evening that you've brought this topic up. Are you okay?"

His eyes were stormy almost. There were so many layers, that the real him, felt hidden behind all that. I was on a mission, no matter how much time and energy it took, I'd dig deep enough to get him out of it.

He bit his lip, face contorting to a different kind of emotion. "Sometimes I get tired of always being told what to do. I don't have a say in if it's right or wrong, I just have to shut up and nod my head. I'm not a robot you know? I'm a human being with very real emotions, and I want to be heard for like, just once!"

I squeezed his hand, urging him to continue. I didn't know what got him so worked up, and who these people were who were trying to get him down, all I knew was, today was the day he would let everything out.

And just like it had gone up, the mask came down on him once again. He tuck everything back in its hiding place, and plastered a fake smile on.

"Umm- Don't worry, it was nothing, just me over thinking. Sometimes it happens, and- it's really not a big deal. Forget it, don't let it bother you."

It was nothing like he claimed it to be. The stress lines on his forehead were very real, and the fake smile, cracking away every second.

I didn't know if it was my place to pry, I mean, yes we were dating, but the things he had just said seemed to have a whole lot more depth, and I wasn't sure, if he was ready to disclose them in front of me or not.

"Hey, I told you not to worry babe. I was just thinking out loud, it's not a big deal. I hate seeing you look worried."

I smiled lightly, trying to reassure him. I don't think I was doing a very good job, because I found myself, once again, back in his arms.

Before he could utter soothing words which would probably make me forget everything, I beat him to it. "You once told me, that if I ever needed to talk, you would be there for me, not as my boyfriend, but a friend. And today, I want to say the same. If you need to tell me something, you definitely don't need to hold back. I'll be there, always, I can guarantee you that, and whatever you do, be it, something minuscule or world altering, I'll back you up, one hundred percent."