I thought you loved me *A Larry Stylinson Fanfic*

Chapter 2

CHAPTER 2

Everything went mute.

I didn't want to hear what they were talking about. I looked over to Louis who was nodding like nothing happened. I looked at Simon who was talking to Louis about the current situation .Smiling. They were both smiling.

 I remembered the times with just me and Louis together. The first time we met, the first time we jokingly kissed even though it meant so much to me. 

I felt like nothing.

Why did Simon do this to me?

I thought Louis loved me. 

But he is acting as if nothing happened. Like he didn't hear what Simon just said. Like it didn't matter that we couldn't be together. Or maybe he didn't feel the same as I did...

I got up from the chair I was sitting in and all sound came flooding back to my ears. I soon realised the silent tears falling from my eyes as I ran out of the room without saying a word.

 I ran and ran until I came to my house. Then I broke. 

*End of Flashback *

I sobbed louder, if that was even possible, as it replayed again in my head, hopefully for the last time.  But I know it will only continue. I stood up, shaking so violently I was surprised I could even stand. 

I looked at the figure in the mirror. Broken. Torn. A worthless mess. That’s all that looked back at me. I felt the tears slowly falling down my cheeks as I stared at the trembling person in front of me. I didn't know if I should be angry or depressed. Right now I was both.

I wasn’t that keen on self harming, so that wasn’t an option.

I feel like I lost my identity 

So that’s what I was going to do. I was going to lose the one thing that “made me who I am”.

 I rummaged through the bathroom cupboards and found a pair of scissors. I took them in my hands and looked at the mirror again, the tears slowly fading away, my red, bloodshot eyes becoming more exposed in the somehow brighter light.

I took the scissors to the famous “curls” on the top of my head and cut the largest curl I could find and cut it off.

Only a few more cuts.