Loved You Anyway [Zayn Malik]

35: He Forgot, She Remembered

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Chapter 35:

Hazel POV:

*5 years later

Waking up and the first thing you see in the morning is the person that you love, is probably the most amazing feeling in the whole wide world and the entire universe. Nothing could compare to that amazing giddy feeling of seeing his dazzling eyes staring back at you, his lips twitching up into a smile at the sight of you with your messy hair.

It all feels … perfect.

Perfection is what everyone wants to be throughout their lifetime. Only a few open their eyes and notice that imperfection is perfection and not that only perfection exists but that in reality, perfection doesn’t exist.

I was probably one of those few that opened their eyes and realized that imperfection is perfection. Okay, maybe a little help from those inspirational quotes on Tumblr helped a tad bit in helping me realize that perfection was actually in imperfection.

Some say that true love lasts forever and others say true love never lasts. I never believed in any of those two. I always thought that I had to let go, be free and just live my life the way it comes. I solve my daily problems and get over things. Only I didn’t get over one thing. One thing that has probably haunted my dreams throughout these past five years.

I’ve always wanted my happy ending with my one and only true love. I still haven’t got it but I’m on my way to the beginning of my happy ending with him.

Five years ago I knew a fact. That fact has in fact become a reality.

He left for Bootcamp and a week after, I left for college together with Jesy and supposedly Niall and Liam but they had other plans. Plans that are still living till this second. Plans that tore my friends apart from me and plans that tore Jesy and I’s first love apart.

Let me start from Jesy’s story. Bootcamp was marvelous for her and Niall, Judges Houses was amazing and from Live Shows things started going downhill. After Live Show 4, Jesy started feeling lonely and depressed having to live miles away from Niall so they broke it off without a word to each other. One text from him was all it took to send Jesy into the hole of darkness and the road of ‘once you walk through this road, there’s no going back’. Niall tried contacting her to get back together and say sorry but she; being the hard-headed idiot she is, either declined the call or let it ring and ring and ring until Niall finally gave up. If she had actually answered those calls five years ago, they would have probably been married and had cute little babies. A month after the break up, after a long day filled with long-hour lectures I returned to the flat that I shared with Jesy, another girl named Astrid and two other lads named Mark and Antoine. Only to find the bedroom I shared with her empty. She dropped out of college and followed her ‘new’ friends somewhere out of town and away from home.

I haven’t heard from her since.

I haven’t heard from Zayn either. Neither Harry nor Louis, Liam or Niall. None of them and after some time (months actually) I had grown accustomed to the empty feeling of having to live with them. I had to learn again how to sleep without Zayn by my side.

I had no idea where my mother was either. For all I knew she could be dead. I had only contacted my father a few times and since he was always busy with work, I simply decided to just not call him anymore and live my life alone.

That was until I started seeing Mark in a whole different way. Things sparked from that one night we ended up alone in the flat because Astrid had a seminar and Antoine went away for the weekend to visit his family a few miles away from the flat. Two days and bam! It was quite ironic to be honest. He burnt himself trying to cook a pot of noodles for dinner and I had to drive him to the hospital. He wanted me to tuck him in bed and instead ended up cuddling together for the night and sleeping till two in the afternoon the next day.