dilemma ; xiumin [two]

eins

[minseok]

i isolated myself from everybody
because it seems wrong for me to carry on normally.
after you killed yourself,
only i cared.
your mother didn't even blink.
i heard you shut her out,
i heard you skipped meals
for nine months.
you were beautiful,
both thin and overweight.
i only lost weight
because my parents made me;
they're perfectionists
and they wanted their son to be perfect.
is it bad that i didn't want to,
is it bad that while i battled with them i preferred to watch you from afar;
rather than tell you,
like we did before
because i know how insecure you are when it comes to weight.