dilemma ; xiumin [two]

zwanzig

[minseok]

am i meant to be getting over you or am i meant to be getting over my feelings for you that still linger
i don't see what's the point
you're gone
forever
but my mind
tells me
that you're watching
that you're coming back
yet why should i believe myself?
it's tearing me apart and i don't think i can cope any longer with the thoughts and memories of you and our childhood
the memory of you
lying on the ground
crimson circling you
hair spread out
your body cold
unmoving
heart that ceased to beat
i don't think i can cope
if i remember it all
so vividly
what do i do
what do i do to stop
being suffocated by these thoughts
i want you to go
go
leave

i want to forget
and i will