dilemma ; xiumin [two]

vier

[minseok]

why am i not with you?
ara, why am i still alive?
after everything i've done,
i deserve to rot in hell.
it is all my fault you killed yourself.
it is all my fault you starved yourself.
i keep on crying even though it's been so long since you left this world.
i still love you,
is that bad?
i don't think it is.
loving a dead person,
loving somebody who i long to hold in my arms even though it is impossible to do so,
is my punishment for my sins.
i'm dying.