dilemma ; xiumin [two]

elf

[minseok]

the first thing you said to me
was my name.
you said it with so much hatred but your eyes said otherwise.
you looked even thinner.
you looked even prettier.
you looked like an angel.
a suicidal angel.
yet your sharp eyes pierced mine with a calculating glare -
i knew you wouldn't forgive me.
next thing i know,
is that you're pulling me into a warm embrace.
i don't care if it's just a dream,
it's the only time i can see you;
so vividly,
so clearly.
you smelt like lavender
and strawberries,
your hands were ice cold
but i didn't care.
my first love was finally with me.
i only started screaming when you turned to dust and i was left alone once again.