dilemma ; xiumin [two]

sechzehn

[minseok]

ara,
park ara,
what have you done to me?
why aren't you talking to me?
why aren't you in my dreams?
why am i have dreamless naps?
why am i even sleeping?
why am i starting to enjoy attending therapy?
why is this girl mesmerising me?
but why do i still crave death?
what have you done to me?
and what have i done to myself?
i hate this,
i hate everything,
i hate you,
i hate her,
i hate myself,
i hate everyone,
i hate being alive.