L is for Love

Chapter 23

School was surprisingly good. Everyone was really great. Every time Jake would come into the room, everyone would jump up and come running over to me and start talking to me, trying to distract me. It was so funny watching them; they would practically fight to be the one to talk to me. They were worse than two women fighting over a designer handbag at the January sales.

Cassie hadn’t spoken to me since the party. She had clearly got lucky at the party because ever since she was dating Mathew Summers. She had evidently forgotten all about me and the rest of the group. She was back at the top now and back in with the populars; she had no reason to take any notice of us anymore. We had been all forgotten about. This normally would have annoyed me but I didn’t because ultimately I knew this would happen. And if she had been hanging around with us it would only have gotten me down because she was a constant reminder of what had happened at the party. It wasn’t that I blamed her; I mean at least I knew where I stood now.

 I wasn’t chasing some impossible dream that could never happen now. It was over and at least I could try and move on. Admittedly it was proving to be hard, in fact almost as impossible as me and him being an item was. But I didn’t blame her it wasn’t her or anyone’s fault not even his. Although I think he was feeling slightly guilty about it because every time he saw me he would look away shyly. It wasn’t sure if it was because he hated the idea of me and him or because he felt sorry for me. Either way it wasn’t good but I didn’t want it to stop us from being friends. I missed our little pointless chats that we’d have been classes and downtown. They were never going to be quite the same between us now but I still didn’t want them to disappear completely.

“So...what are you doing for your birthday?”

I looked up shaking my head slightly trying to snap myself out of my daydream.

“What?”

“What are you doing for your birthday?” said Louise sitting down beside me on the green chairs.

“Uh...I don’t know I hadn’t really thought about it to be honest.”

“Becks it’s in like a month. If you’re going to do something you need to get your arse on the move! How about a party at Milligan’s or something? ”

“Milligan’s? Seriously do you know how much that would cost? It’s more likely to be in my living room.” I said forcing a laugh.

“Your living room?” she said looking sceptical.  “Yeah alright. Sounds like a plan! So when is this infamous house party going to take place?”

“I was joking! Have you seen the size of my house? Besides I couldn’t see my parents being all too happy with having like fifty people in my house.”

“Yeah I suppose so. But you never know until you ask. Hey you know what you could do?”

“And what’s that?” I said looking at her, an eyebrow slightly raised.

“Well you know whose birthday’s a couple of days before yours...you could have a joint party!”

 I rolled my eyes at her. She would never know how bad an idea that was. I hadn’t told her about what had happened between me and Liam. She was still under the impression that I still fancied him. In an ideal world it would have been a perfect idea seeing that his birthday was just two days before my own. We could have had a joint house party. But with things the way they were at the moment there couldn’t be a worse suggestion.

“Uh...I’m not sure my parents would let me to be honest.” Trying my best to change the subject.

“Oh well...well have to think of something.”

“Hey Louise do you know what to do with task four I’m completely stuck on it! I said Marie walking over to us carrying a folder and a sheet of paper in her hands. She sat down on the chair besides us both and handed Louise the sheet. Louise looked down at the sheet and examined it carefully, presumably trying to work out what the question was.

“Hey Becky how are you haven’t spoken to you in ages. The last time was probably at my party but I doubt you remember that.” She said with a hint of a laugh.

“Yeah I’m fine thanks. I was talking to you at your party? Was I? I don’t remember that. What was a talking to you about?”

“Well actually you and Chris were talking to me about how you ‘loved the paintings on the wall’ and you wanted to take them home. You both tried to pull them off the wall but they were screwed on to the wall...thank god.”

“Oh my god. I didn’t did I? I don’t remember being with Chris either.”

“Yeah you were together most the night Becks.” Said Jason who was sitting opposite me.

“Was I?”  I was slightly worried. I didn’t recall that at all. I switched seats, moving over to sitting next to him. “Oh god please say I didn’t do anything!”

“No you didn’t you were both too drunk too. And too interested in pulling the paintings off the wall.”

“Why didn’t you say anything about this before?”

“I don’t know I guess I forgot. Seriously you did so much stupid stuff that night. The list is endless.”

“What are you talking about?” said Aria and Anna walking over with mugs of tea in their hands closely followed by Amy.

“Marie’s party and the painting thing.” Said Jason filling them in.

“Oh that, I’d forgotten you did that!”

“This is precisely why I don’t want to have a party. I’ll only end making a fool of myself some way or another. “I said burying my face in my hands.

“Party? Did I hear someone say party?” Said Lily coming round the corner with Carmen.

“Yeah Becks is thinking of having a party for her eighteen. I reckon she should have a joint one with Liam.” Said Louise waggling her eyebrows.

“Oh...” said everyone in unison.

I had had to tell them everything after the party because it was too much hassle trying to keep up the lie. It was better this way as well I hated lying to them but I didn’t tell Louise because however much it felt better not lying about it to my friends I still wanted to keep it on a need to know basis. She would understand I’m sure.

“Uh...I’ve got to go to English.” I said getting up and pulling my bag up over my shoulder. “You coming Ams?” I said turning to face her.

“Uh yeah...”

We both walked out through the door and took a left turn.

“She doesn’t know then?”Amy asked.

“No. I suppose I’ll probs have to tell her now. But I don’t want to. “

“Why? It’s not like you did anything. It was him not you.”

“Yeah I know but way too many people already know.”

“Why are you worried about it getting out? It’s not like it’s gonna look bad on you.”

“Really? You know what Hereporth Heath is like.... Everyone’s going to think that I led him on something. And if it gets back to Cassie god knows what she’ll do. I mean she obviously trusted me and I feel really bad for not telling her about it but I guess I thought she would think like everyone else and think that I led him on.”

“True but then I’m not being funny but she’s not exactly caring too much about you after the party is she? I mean where is she?”

“Snogging Matt probs.” I said giggling. We both laughed because both of us knew that that was most likely true.

“Honestly Becks don’t worry about it it’ll turn out fine I know it will.” She said giving me flash of that positive smile she always had.

I sighed; I couldn’t help but doubt her. It seemed to be one thing after another lately. Who would have thought that just a few months, weeks even my life had been perfectly normal and boring. Now it was beginning to turn into an episode of Eastenders.