Food for the Soul: Poems

Almost Mine

You were a loner,

I was bubbly then.

You never knew,

Or was I,

How we talked or when.

I approached you,

You just looked away.

Your eyes felt cold, 

A stare I can't hold,

But still, "it's okay",

to myself, I told.

I was dismayed, discouraged,

Too embarassed as to say

And I never did tried to spoke to you

ever again.

Afraid to utter,

Afraid of rejection as an end. 

You were ruthless, rough

way back then.

Dunno how, when

And most of all why.

You befriended me

Followed me

then stayed by my side.

I've given up,

Accepted you,

in just a snap.

I never asked,

Never dreamed

But yes,

I was overwhelmed. 

Then one day

you told me

That you had a thing

Unsure, confused thought

"was this a fling?"

You said you love me

And it felt so true.

My coward heart,

Too nervous,

"how'd it grew?"

Cause to myself, I knew

This was something new. 

I wasn't sure,

wasn't prepared

and too unaware

I'm too shy,

too denial and close to quit.

Was it really love?

or was just a game?

Finally I decided

don't wanna risk

The friendship that we had

in just a brisk

You looked away

Full of hurt,

i felt your pain.

I was sorry,

but you never

let me said any.

You never spoke to me

ever again.

and my life felt like it will gonna end.

I loved you truly as a friend

A brother, a sibling that's what I meant

But why, far away looking how

You looked so happy.

When it wasn't me that you're with

I'm feeling empty.

I watched you grow

Glowed, soaring high.

And here i am still waiting

as if you'll say a 'hi'.

Just when i thought I already knew

what I felt for you

You're now gone,

and here i am

dying with none. :(