((Play that song when it comes to the part she puts on her headphones))
Hailey Cassander
Ring ring ring.
Ugh, my alarm beeped all across the room. A hack for you to wake up almost immediately to get up and stop the alarm. As if on cue my mom entered as soon as the alarm stopped.
"It's a good thing you're awake" my mom smirked.
"Why?" I asked almost sarcastically.
"Last night you couldn't stop drinking beer after you suddenly remembered about Jack"
Jack....
Oh God, I love him so much. Why can't I move on? He gave me so much to remember that moving on isn't something I can do.
I became silent after that.
"Oh, did I say something that made it worse?" Mom asked.
"No mom, I'm fine. You can go downstairs now, I'll prepare for school" I said while walking to my closet.
Mom finally went downstairs to continue making waffles.
Sigh
Never in my life I've been depressed like this
And it only happened because of one person. Wow, so much things a person can do to you.
I looked at all my clothes, searching an outfit I could wear today. After searching and throwing them on the floor I was able to pick my outfit
And that's what I ended up choosing ⬇
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Yes, I'm feeling depressed right now, so I'm wearing black and that's my hairstyle.
I went to the shower and took a bath. After that, I wore the clothes I've picked and trudged downstairs.
"Here's your breakfast, Ms. addicted-to-black" my mom joked.
"Ha ha ha" I replied.
I ate my waffles and drank milk. It's 7:15 and school starts at 7:30. No need to worry, my school is just 4 blocks away from my house.
I grabbed my headphones on the table and went in mom's car. I put my headphones on and played the song "Little do you know"
Little do you know How I'm breaking while you fall asleep
Little do you know I'm still haunted by the memories
Little do you know I'm trying to pick myself up piece by piece
I felt tears streaming down my cheeks, why was I still feeling this way? It's 2 years ago and I still haven't moved on.
Little do you know I I need a little more time
Maybe I do need a little more time to heal. It's not gonna be easy, but I know I'll make it.
Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside I've been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind
I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight--
"Hailey" I heard my mom say.
I opened my eyes, seeing that we're already at school.
I turned off the music and kept my headphones in my bag. "Bye mom" I said and kissed her on the cheek.
I went outside and started walking.
I couldn't forget the last part I heard
"I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight"
Maybe I'll forgive him, for breaking my heart. But forget him? That's another story.
I walked towards my locker to get my books for first hour. Unfortunately it's math, it's probably adding to the drama I've been dealing with lately.
"Hey Hailey!" My bestfriend, Penelope, -but I call her Penny- greeted.
"Hey" I smiled.
"So how are you feeling?" She asked.
"Hangover" I said.
"Oh, that's normal" she assured.
I closed my locker, tightly hugging the books I have. Penny and I walked towards math class, fortunately she's with me in this class.
Now I don't have to worry about being alone with nerds or math genius'
Class went pretty fast and soon it was already dismissal. I went to the bathroom to have a retouch on my slight make up. I mean, even if we're depressed we still gotta look good right?
"Omg, this band is so amazing, I totally ship Jack Zion and Diane Vae, I'm glad they were able to make a band together" a girl squealed.
Jack Zion?
He's probably happy..
With another girl, and it's not me. Then look at me right now, I'm not even happy genuinely. It's all fake, I was never happy after he left.
And now, he's happy with another girl?
I immediately rushed to the nearest cubicle so that the girls can't see me crying.
Sh*t
Why am I like this?
How is it so easy for him when it's so hard for me?
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Hey guys, told you this chapter will be longer than the intro.
