Cupid and I

Chapter 19: Plans

Days passed like a blur. I didn't do much. But still it's too much for my liking. I want to stay at home for the rest of the week, curl up on my bed and mourn on my now shattered heart. Sana hanggang ngayon pinapagpapahinga pa ako ni kuya dahil sa sakit ko.

But he made me go to school. To be distracted, he said. He doesn't want to see me broken... and lifeless. At least in school I had to pretend to be fine. To be perfectly fine for their sake. For my own sake.

The President and I already agreed to some terms. We will let the roses stay but we will lessen its number. The flowers are too many for my eyes. Especially now that it reminds me of Clint. We will remove the flower arc at the gate. Gosh, it's so ugly. The sight of it make me want to go back home everytime I went to school.

It turns out that Felice paid some of the School Council members to pull the act. They are being dealt with now but will still stay as school officials. They did no crime, but still accepting bribe is no good.  As for Felice, that bitch is suspended for one week. One freaking week for my peace of mind. To my dismay, malaki ang shares ng family niya sa school kaya hindi siya pwedeng iexpel. Suspencion is the least they can do.

My friends entertain me for the past few days. They keep me busy. Keep me away from my own grave thoughts about my own twisted life. They keep me away from thinking about Clint. They would talk about everything except him. I'm not surprised that they already knew what happened. The fire spread so easily and the smoke is still haunting me in my dreams.

"Have you learned your lesson?"

His voice is full of anger it makes me shiver to think he only said five words. I know he will be mad. I did tell him that I will not break his one and only rule but here I am feeling miserable for a broken heart. Cupid can see right through my heart. Heck, he can even see it.

Despite the shame I am feeling, I nod.

"You are running out of time. You should take your mission seriously. It's no game. No undo. One wrong decision and everything will be wronged. How can you forget that? I thought you already knew what is tasked to you. I thought wrong."

Mad. Cupid's mad at me. I don't blame him. I cannot. I deserved it. I break his rule and that resulted for a broken heart. Enough trade right?

"Not much of a trade," he said. Right. He can even hear my thought. Why did I forget that? Thinking what to say is better. Because I don't have the heart to speak to him. It would break me more.

"You break my rule and he breaks your heart. I do not want any of those. There's no trade. As much as I want to, I cannot control your emotions. With others, I can easily do it. But with you, it's different. You are the only one controlling your feelings, your emotions."

He pull something out on his pocket. It is a mirror. A small, round mirror enough to show my face. Why he have it, I don't know.

"I did not make him fall inlove with her just to teach you a lesson. He always loves her. Always. He never forget about her. His heart never stops beating for her. It was always been her. He just realizes it when she saw her again."

He gave the mirror. And to my horror, it is not a mirror at all. It is like the well in his office. Showing images I vowed not to look at. Showing how his heart glow the same color as hers. Showing how he still love her after all those years. I close my eyes when the images shifts to his wedding proposal. I cannot bear look at it. I just can't.

"You should. So you can understand," he insisted. His words cuts deep into me.

This past few days I've been avoiding Clint, and even ate Max. I don't want to talk to him. It's too soon. Everything is still fresh from my mind. It's too soon, I keep telling myself. I cannot.