All I Ever Wanted
All I ever wanted was a friend,
Someone who cared,
A person I could share my darkest self with,
Who wouldn't run away,
Wouldn't judge,
But smile, and tell me, "It's all right,"
When really,
My world was caving.
When I cried, someone to wipe those tears,
To make me feel as if,
It's acceptable to be broken,
To wish you were dead,
To want to be caressed.
I wanted someone to make me laugh while I was crying,
Someone to make me smile while I was internally dying
You to make me feel special, like I am the only one you need.
You were just that.
And, so, so much more.
Somehow, things changed,
You became heartless,
Stopped caring,
Perhaps, you were always this way.
I'll never really know,
I suppose.
But, this one lingering question is always for you,
"Why?"
~ Rose Pond
