15/09/2013 7:57Pm
The same girl I'm dateing now is the cause of much stress in my life, but I love her .... She lives far away ... not even in the same city ..... I know what I need to do and she already knows it wouldn't work out until I get a job .. I'm 16 but don't have things I need for a job yet... as soon as I get one I'll look into buying an apartment, I already know the Area of the apartment and how much rent is going to cost ... I live in Hamilton Ontario ... My life is like the life of any other city teenager except I don't care for Drugs and Under-age drinking.. When I feel upset I do what I do now ... I write, when I feel mad, I write ... one thing wrong with me is I'm Suicidal .. I also have anxiety it's pretty bad the thing that helps me overcome it is my music ... Right now I'm pretty Depressed because I know what I need to do for the future, I'll have to let go of one of two things I love, both these things I love HATE each other, funny isn't it...? That's one reason I need to let it all go.. she isn't aloud near my house and I can't reach her I have no car and no money ... Another reason I want a job so I can see this person ... They say if it doesn't work out then just leave ... But I can't I'm too emotionally attached to her ... Recently I tride to end my life ... I ended up in a Hospital for 8 days .. for some reason on the 8th day they said I'm leaving a day after ... nothing changed .. They are trying to get me "Help" but it's not even worth it ..Last Thursday I went into the Hospital for my meeting and I told the Doctor how they didn't help, I told them how It elt like they kicked me aside it felt like they just droped me of and drove off ... to have the "professionals" do such a thing? but I do not hate them they tride, they gaave me more strenth in words .. Feel free to write a review on my work.... Goodbye for now.-AB
