17/09/2013 11:35Pm
Do you ever question what is real? what makes something real or fake? Because we call things we don't understand "Fake" ...? Or because we don't think it's real we call it "Fake"....? but when us writers use our words like we do we can make anything seem "Real"... In my mind I question a lot of what is real and what isn't. A dream isn't real but it seems to be so doesn't it...? When you fall in a dream don't you feel every little decal .. the air on your skin the fear in your eyes .. or if your attacked in a dream... shot, torched ... Everything you feel in a "Mortal" form in your every day life you may feel it in a dream, myself personally I'm scared of my dreams I can really say ...A reason why I'm awake at the time I am ... My life seems to be nothing more then a dream ,last year I knew myself this year it seems like this is all a small little thing... A dream perhaps? sometimes when I walk I don't feel like myself until I find myself in a line at a place buying a coffee then my min tunes in, it's like, day dreaming...? But It doesn't bother me when I try to sleep I lay in bed for hours not knowing how to sleep sometimes well, who doesn't know how to sleep? How to have your mind fall asleep without you knowing it and being wakened up the next day? Sometimes I've said I "Don't dream" But according to a book, I still dream BUT I don't remember it, they say after the first five minutes of waking up you don't remember your dream but what if you don't remember ANYTHING about your dream? this happens quiet often when I do dream it's very odd, I can't explain it in words ..... My friends call me different the hospital called me different ... I guess I'm different...? They say I have amazingly good hearing and I notice every little thing with my sight... They questioned my mom that if I take notice to every litte thing I'll miss the "Big picture" What big picture? Life itself...? I don't know what to question much these days .. in a world where everything that seemed to be fake a few years ago is now real .. this is all I can say for now Goodbye to you all.-AB
