So a lot of drama has been going on for the past couple of months. I had a really really good friend, but I made so many mistakes and I never saw them. It's a subject I don't like talking about so long story short we stopped being friends and for some damn reason no matter what angry things she spats out at me, whether it'd be through someone or other social media, I still can't find a way to be mad at her.
Maybe because I'm too stubborn to accept that we're not friends anymore, I thought. I don't want to talk about it, I said. Then a few nights ago I figured out why I can't get over her — I had a damn crush on her. Every night I beat myself up about all the things I did wrong and I've been doing so much, even going to great lengths. Lets just say that I'd rather have myself suffer than see her all alone.
Then after talking to my internet friend I realized I can't keep this up. The damage has been done and maybe it happened for a reason, but I can't keep pulling myself away from people just to see her happy. I'm going to a new school and I won't be able to do anything there so I might as well stop.
I have to spend three more weeks in hell before I get out and this is testing month all throughout. I'm tired, mentally and physically. A few other things I need to stop giving a fuck about, shit talking, needy people, and transphobics. Well there's a lot more, but those are the basics.
Well there was my rant. Goodnight o('^｀)o
DU LIEST GERADE
Between You And Me
De TodoSo this is a redo of my rants and random. Before it was all. . .scattered and I rarely updated, but I think I can try again. This is basically a public journal with art pieces =3
