Travel through Time (Edmund Pevensie)

Goodbye and Good Luck: Chapter 4

So I looked up who plays Lilliandil and I was browsing through photos of Laura Brent and Lilliandil and I just... IDK, I realized that I look A LOT and I mean A LOT like her. Just surprising haha.

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Dawn broke over the sea, and I was tugged out of Edmund's head. I gazed fondly down at his sleeping form before exiting his room.

Shame. I liked it there in his head where he could see me.

"Wishing for something more yet?" came a voice from behind me, and I turned and looked back to see Lilliandil. I scoffed and floated away up off the boat and through the air. She followed quickly.

"What are you thinking, Clarisse?" She taunted, flying in circles around me. "Going to abandon Narnia for Edmund when you originally abandoned Edmund for Narnia? Edmund's right, what a rotten liar." I gasped.

"You tugged me away?! Why? How could you? Who said we were finished?" She started to laugh.

"Trust me, darling," Lilliandil sneered, "you were finished. Hopefully he'll think it was all just a dream. If he gets too attached to you, he'll end up going crazy. You can't be with him anymore. You already made your decision." I stopped and hovered for a while before sighing.

"What do I have to do?" I asked her, watching her face become smug.

"Whatever do you mean, dearest Clarisse?" I rolled my eyes.

"Cut the mean girl act, please. You're a celestial being, you can't be so petty. Just tell me what I need to do to become human again."

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It turns out, I had A LOT to do to become a human. First, I had to go BACK to Narnia and abandon this journey that I was assigned to watch over. Then, I had to go ALL the way to the West Wood to find some little old woman with a potion. Lastly, I had to FIND Aslan. Yes, find the all-knowing and supreme lion that can't be found. Brilliant.

So I'm on the first step, right?

Wrong.

I was hovering around the bow of the ship watching Reepincheep bask in the ocean air, and listening to Eustace complain constantly.

I...I want to become human again so badly... to be with Edmund.

But I can't. I won't abandon them. I was entrusted to look over this journey because Narnia will be saved only if they succeed. It is my duty as a guardian to see that they will be victorious.

I looked back to the back of the ship toward Edmund who was tying some ropes.

Edmund...

"If I was faced with an important decision, I would follow my heart," said a voice to my left. I jumped and turned to face Caspian in surprise. "Right, Reep?"

"Excuse me, Your Highness? I don't follow," he replied to Caspian, looking very confused.

"I'm just saying," Caspian continued, "if you have something you're debating, follow your instinct and heart." I looked over at Caspian again sadly.

"But what if your heart and instinct are saying two different things?" I whispered, putting a hand over my heart. Somewhere in my brain I remembered wondering if I had clothes before, and after my encounter with Edmund, I was happy to know that I am, in fact, clothed if Caspian could see me.

"Reep, do you have something to do for a little while?" Reepincheep nodded and scampered away (literally) and Caspian took his place on the bow, next to me.

"What are they saying, Clarisse?" Caspian looked over at me, voice barely above a whisper. I stared at him with wide eyes.

"How?" I questioned, and he shrugged.

"I'm not sure either, but I have been able to see you for a long time," he paused and grinned, "how does Edmund look while he's asleep? Handsome?" I flushed a bit (can clouds flush?) before swatting at his arm, watching my hand disappear for a moment, but leave a wet spot on his bicep. He frowned. "Cold," he muttered.

"I can't abandon my duty to Narnia... but Edmund," I whispered, gazing sadly in Edmund's general direction. Caspian nodded.

"I see you look at him constantly," he started, "and I see you hover around him protectively. There's no way you will exist happily in Narnia knowing he lives and ages outside it." I looked across the sea.

"But this place...this place is my home," I said, eyes tearing up. "It's so beautiful here..." He nodded.

"I do not wish to see you all leave again, knowing that it will be the last time I see you, but... It's something that HAS to happen. Something that will always happen in the end no matter what the choices. We will be separated." I knew he was talking about Susan...

"I guess... I guess I know what has to be done... in the end," I said, glancing at him. He sadly smiled back. "We won't be parting after all, Caz." He chuckled softly.

"I'm sorry, Clarisse," he said, and I shook my head.

"I brought it on myself."

"Caspian! We're going to go to that island, right? And you're going to let me come? You won't make me stay behind like Peter, will you?" Caspian turned to face Lucy with a smile.

"You're much too brave to stay behind," he said, climbing over to her and patting her head. She pushed off his hand with a frown and glanced to me.

"Who were you talking to? Or have you gone mental already?" She started to giggle and Caspian just stared at her. She began to look uncomfortable. "What? Is there something on my face? Dirt? Food? The afterglow of a great insult?" Caspian's mouth twitched up for a second before maintaining it's straight line.

In a quick movement, he bent and picked up Lu, swinging her around and threatening to toss her into the water. She screamed happily, and I laughed along, hearing my new bell-like laugh for the first time since I entered Narnia. This was the first time I had genuinely laughed. I continued to watch before hovering around them and making Caspian's clothes become wet. He eventually put her down and Lucy raced toward the stern. Caspian gave me one last look before chasing after her.

I felt my heart break when he looked at me. He'd be losing Lu and Ed... he'd be losing his siblings. I would be losing my little sister and my love...

And here comes the pain after making my decision....

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Wouldn't it be cruel if I just ENDED this here with the knowledge that she's going to stay and Edmund and Lucy are going to keep living on earth and age and die and Caspian will eventually die in Narnia and Clarisse will just have to watch it all without being able to do anything? Wouldn't that be awful?