Do you ever think about death? Do you ever think about what happens after it? It's really scary though. Knowing that you will no longer be visible to anybody's eyes and that someday nobody will even bother to remember you. It's really scary to think that someday everything about you will be forgotten. You will not even be a memory anymore. You will just be nothing. You lived once but that's really it after you die.
People asking me what do I want when I get older. I just simply say, 'Live." Why am I here? In this heavenly body? Has my existence been important? Why? People often ask me if there's a problem in my life. I just tell them no, because the problem is not about how am I living, it's who I am sharing oxygen with.
Happy Ending? It depends on how you where you want to end the story?
So let me start my story starting in once upon a time...
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Okay, let me tell you one thing, my mother really loves eating ice cream. So guess what? My name is Ice Cream. Yeah, weird name but I think it's a cool one though.
Simple lang naman ang buhay ko, I have a lovingly father who always take care good of me. My Mom? Wala na siya. Yeah, she left me when I was four years old. Pero hindi pinaramdam ng mga tao sa paligid ko na wala akong nanay, I live like a normal girl.
It was a sunny afternoon. Nasa park ako nung time na 'yun and I was reading a blog para sa mga taong in love. I always love the idea of being in love. Pero hindi ako naniniwala sa love at first sight, parang ang ewan lang kasi na unang kita mo dun sa tao, in love ka na agad? Infatuation siguro but the idea of being in love? Never mind.
Dumating siya ng hindi ko inasahan, si Cyril. The man that I always love. He is someone who has time for me. Someone who can talk to me no matter how occupied he is. Someone who can spend time with me even if he has tons of work to do. I don't care if he only has an hour or two. As long as it is him will to assassinate those hours with me by his side, I'll be fine. Because having someone who is happy to have me, who is contented of owning me, and has time for me is someone who I can live with till the end of my existence.
Akala ko tatanda na akong dalaga, at the age of 21 nakilala ko sya. Sa park nung time na nagbabasa ako ng blog, paalis na sana ako pero biglang umulan ng malakas, naghanap ako ng masisilungan at may nakita naman ako kaya tumakbo ako para makasilong. Then nandun din sya, nagpapatila din ng ulan, kami lang dalawa ang nandun. At dun ko na nangyari ang salitang sinasabi nilang sparks. At it happened so fast na hindi ko namalayan na na-in love na kami sa isa't-isa. Oo, sabi nila walang forever, but there will be always.
Those 3 years and two months na kasama ko siya, sobrang saya ko.
Pero minsan talaga pag sobrang masaya ka na, bibigyan ka ni God ng problema para maalala mo naman siya. Nakakalimot na kasi madalas ang tao kapag sobra sobrang saya at biyaya meron sila. Kapag nasa taas ka, wala ka ng ibang kilala kung hindi ang sarili mo. Kaya ang Diyos ang magbababa sayo. Sa una tatapikin ka lang, pero kapag hindi ka tinablan, baka may iharang siya na ikakadapa mo.
Kaya yang problema na yan? Paalala talaga yan.
May mga problema na dumating samin. Pero lagi nyang sinasabi, 'Please hold on. It may be difficult now, but I promise you it'll all be worth it. Just promise me you won't let go. Just promise me you won't leave. We're going to fight this. We're going to pass through this. Because that's what couples do and that's how it should be. When it rains, we'll wait for the sun to rise once again. When we fall, we'll stand up together. You know how much you mean to me. And I won't let this stupid thing break us. Just stay. It doesn't end like this and it should not end like this and it will never end like this or like any other ways. Because to infinity and beyond, I know we're meant to face the days together. I swear, it's going to get better.'
Pero may mga bagay talagang kahit na ayaw nating mangyari, dumadating pa din. Kahit masakit, kailangang tanggapin.
Katulad ngayon, nakatayo ako harap nya, naka-ngiti.
R.I.P
Cyril Kurt Montefalco
1987-2011
"You'll always be forever in our hearts."
Happy ending? Sorry but we aren't in Disney. And I think that it's just not about the happy ending, it is about the story. We haven't got our happily ever after but it was an amazing story that I will never ever forget.
The end.
