Hold on

Chapter 5 - Safe in my arms

Ruby's POV

I ran upstairs to my room searching through my pockets hoping to find my phone. I was breathing way too fast like i was hyperventilating i finally found my phone and rung up Riley. 'Riley...?' I stuttered. 'What's wrong babe why are you so out of breath?' He asked. 'I...just...i can't.' I muttered. 'Calm down, take a deep breath in and breath out and if you feel a little calmed down explain what happened.' I did what he told me too i tried to relax and ignore the lump in my throat that kept me from talking normal. 'I have to go to the hospital.' I said after a long pause Riley was scilent. 'They are going to do a check up i am so scared Riley.' I said still breathing irregularly. He remained scilent. 'My mom says that it's a small chance that they'll find something only one out of ten.' I explained i heard him breathing. 'Where are you?' I asked him it took a while before i got an aswer. 'I'm on my way home um know that i am here for you no matter what and i am sure you will be fine.' He said. 'I don't know about that...' I said scilently. 'I'm sure you will be and if not i am not leaving your side.' He answered. 'Will you come with me?' My voice was shaky. 'Of course i will.' He said. 'I'll see you tommorow then.' I said. 'You'll be fine don't worry to much.' He replied. 'I'll try goodnight.' I said. 'Goodnight sweetheart.' He said and i hung up.

During dinner time a barely sais-d a word to my parents even though my mom was still trying to tell me that it wasn't a big deal. My dad had this concerned look on his face the  entire time and when i was about to go upstairs he told me that we don't have a very clear idea of the odds which i thought so too the doctors explination about one of ten was utter bullshit they knew that too. I was laying in my bed now just staring into the dark and trying to sleep but i couldn't it just kept me thinking about what happened if i got diagnosed with cancer again, would i just give up? Or would i try to stay strong and fight knowing there's a bigger chance of losing this time around. I didn't find a solution the only thing i found out that it scared the living daylights out of me finally around 2 am i fell asleep. 

Riley's POV

I wanna know how Ruby is dealing with the fact she has to go to the hospital again i'm pretty sure she is frightened i would be too. I walk up to her doorstep and ring the doorbell waiting for her to show up. She opened the door she looked tired and her eyes didn't seem as bright as they usually were. She reaches out for my hand as she comes towards. 'Ruubs what's wrong?' I asked in a worried tone. 'I just had lack of sleep because of...you know.' She said quietly. I didn't respond to her hand that was reaching out for me i pulled her in for a hug because i knew she needed it. 'It's keeping you up isn't it?' I aksed already knowing the answer. 'Yeah.' She muttered into my neck. 'Are you still going to be able to go on that date with me tomorrow?' I asked. 'Yes, sure.' She aswered. 'It will get your mind off of things.' I said. She pulled away. 'We have to get to school.' She said with a faint smile. 'I know, i know.' I replied. I wrapped my arm around her and held her tight to make her feel safe. 'You are going to be okay i promise it's still far away.' I said to her. She nodded but i knew she didn't believe me.

During class i tried to make her smile with cracking the stupidest jokes and making silly faces it made her smile but it wasn't her real smile i could tell. I had to make sure that this date tomorrow was amazing and i want to see her smile and hear her beautiful laughter again. I am just really hoping that she won't push me away if anything bad happens because i won't let her go. I'll protect her not matter what.

Ruby's POV

It's funny how Riley thinks that just can make a silly face and make me laugh and it worked pretty damn well too. I just try to keep telling myself that i'll be okay and i don't know if i can make myself believe that. Next monday i'll have to go to the hospital i hate that word i despise it with a passion. Ever scince i was 14 and i got diagnosed for the 1st time i hated it right away up untill i was there for the last time when i was 16 i still hated it and nothing was ever going to change that.

I only didn't tell Jordin and Leila who i became pretty close friends with over the couple weeks that i had spend here. I didn't feel the need to tell them because i am still healed and they don't need to be worried about me. 'So you and Riley?' Jordin asked getting me out of my thoughts. 'Are you boyfriend and girlfriend yet?' She continued. 'Not officially...i think i mean we are going on a date tomorrow.' I answered Leila smiled at me. 'I think you two are so aborable together.' She said with a smile on her face Jordin nodded agreeing. 'He is the perfect boyfriend material for you he just treats you like a princess.' Jordin said. 'I know he is really sweet.' I replied. I looked up and i saw Riley walking into the cafeteria on his own scince we didn't have math together. He smiled as soon as he saw me causing me to smile too. 'There is prince charming.' Jording joked. I got up to give him a hug a soon as he wrapped his arm around me i felt safe, guarded and protected. 'I'm coming with you Monday.' He whispered. 'You seriously don't have to do that.' I replied. 'But i want to.' He said. I looked up at him. 'Are you sure?' I asked. 'Absolutely i want to be there for you no matter what.' He said convinced. 'Okay then.' I agreed. 'But before that we will have some fun tomorrow.' He said with a grin. I smiled 'We will?' I asked honestly happy. 'Yes.' He answered.

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I'm sorry if this one wasn't that good it's pretty late and my eyelids are giving up. But but but! Shit will start hitting the fan sometime soon and then we will definedly get into it and it will get really interesting i already have so many ideas i'm really excited! So keep reading pretty please

Julie x