dear jonah

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dear Jonah,

I vividly remember the day you saved me, the day I realized that you were and are the love of my life. I’m not brave enough to write about it just yet but I promise I will, you’ve told me to face my fears and I will. I just want to write about you, right now. 

I found a poem that made my heart drop, once again.

“I fell in love today

With a someone as bright as the sun

Eyes like the moon

They were the stars

In a crowd of darkness

That is everyone else

They don’t believe so

But something tells me

Its my job

To make them believe

That they burn bright 

Enough to be my light”

Me saying ‘I miss you’ is an understatement. I feel as if I can still feel your presence. That or I’m going crazy. Jonah i’m never going to be complete without you, there is absolutely no way I can get you back and that kills me inside. I can’t even contemplate life without you knowing that every time I thought about our future, you would always be there. Every time I look in the mirror, I feel as if I can’t see my reflection anymore. You made me who I am today and I swear to you I don’t regret anything at all.

Here I am, crying myself asleep again.

“Keeping an eye on the world,
From so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, and towering over your head” I never imagined how we would relate to our song, ever.

 That particular verse holds meaning that i'll love for eternity. Like I will for you. 

My angel.

I love you.

Cass.