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by angeldaze

by angeldaze

dear Jonah,

“you took the fall for us”

I honestly forget how to feel, I forget everything. But you.

ever since you’ve left nothing has never been good enough. I don’t appreciate myself or my decided lifestyle. All because I truly love and miss you.

I feel like there’s a tight rope tugging at my heart, making me fall weak day by day.

It’s acceptable to mourn, but Jonah, I am scared.

I think we may have done something wrong, and something you and I will regret.

Should I stay or should I leave, I don’t mean the house. Should I leave everything behind?

I had looked at my scars that remain to cover my thighs. A tear fell onto the flesh, remembering your cold touch that made everything feel surreal.

everything felt in place and right. Not like today, not like these past weeks of living hell.

I am fighting the urge to attempt again, I want to be with you Jonah, and I feel my throat closes up every time I think of a future without you.

now, I have realized that you have created such a great impact in my life.

I have to confirm something that could dramatically change my life forever, if I let it be.

help me, hold me in your arms.

I love you.

sleeping at last, my angel.

Cass.