dear jonah

08.

dear Jonah,

something terrible happened today. I bumped into danny today, only to be yelled at.

the scene honestly caught me off guard, especially because he made me feel as if I was at fault for your death. Is this true?

Do you think I put you under pressure?

I’m truly sorry if I did Jonah, I really am.

I hadn’t wished this upon the both of us, especially you, you’re so precious. I love you with all my heart, but I feel like danny was right.

but I know he wasn’t.

he frightened me, soon to be thrown out of the shopping center.

I feel like my mind and body has become numb.

numb from finally breaking again.

his threat shattered me, I can’t bear to say or write it again.

I’m done.

I think maybe I should stop these letters, I think maybe I should finally give up trying to pretend I’m strong. I think maybe I should’ve ended myself when I had the chance, before you came into my life.

It’s not just the heart that breaks.

I love you.

cass.