05-11-16
Inside, I feel dead but I'm not. I still have emotions - I wish I didn't. I rather be a cold heartless person because it hurts less than being full of emotions. I can't handle it anymore. Everyone is hurting me and I can't trust anyone, even the people I am suppose to. Maybe then - maybe with no emotions I will not be as pained. Each fucked up word thrown at me - has sliced me deeply. It scars me. It cannot heal. And just like a scar - it will be a daily reminder stuck onto my skin.
Everyone does not have time for me and I feel so lonely - I grew up lonely. It's like I'm living in a mansion but by myself. I really hate this. They always say they love me but why are they the ones hurting me? I thought family are the ones that are suppose to protect you, not going against you.
How can I love myself if there is no set example? I always try to. I try so hard and push myself to think negative things. But I seriously cannot. I am cheating myself. I am copying off people who say positive things but I don't understand a thing.
I am in a cage and the key is not present until I am old enough to move out.
Do not give me advice if you cannot take it yourself. I'm just asking you to listen not to lie.
Thanks.
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
Late Night Thoughts
PuisiThese are some late night thoughts in the form of poetry or just written out plainly as if I were talking to you directly. You can probably relate, I hope this inspires you to write your own original literature and to keep a digital journal like thi...
