Cursed

Reminiscing

I flipped another page of the book I'm reading when my alarm clock started ringing, reminding me that it was time for my training. (It's rhyming. Lol) I let out a loud groan as I imagine myself in training with others that can shift while I.....still cant. I feel really ashamed to be with them in three hours, one hundred eighty minutes,and ten thousand eight hundred seconds every single day. At those moments I just want the ground to swallow me alive, I envy them for they can use their wolf form during the training, they can run and fight in their wolf while I stare at them in awe.

I sighed and shook my head. 'Well at least I can defeat them in everything.' I thought to myself.

Yes, I can't shift, yes I envy them, and yes I want to be just like them but I can't. So what's the point of sulking at the corner and shutting everyone out when you know in yourself that the right time will come and you will become what you really are. So being a very late shifter won't stop me from trying to be strong, and I want to prove to everyone that I can be their future Alpha even if I won't shift ever. That's why I trained very hard, fought with them while they use their wolf form on me, and after the long run, I did it. I became strong and learned that having flaws won't stop you from becoming what you want to be, use that flaw as your motivation at achieve your goals and never compare yourself to others. Time will come, you just have to wait. And that's what exactly I'm doing.

Now, I can defend myself from shifters in their wolf form and can defeat them starting from the run and up to fighting hand in hand or sometimes hand in paw.

I'm strong and I will stay strong to defend my future pack when I become the Alpha. I'm the first born of the Luna and I shall take over this pack in the near future.

I got up and went to the clearing where the training is being held. When I got there I was surprised too see that they've already started without me. "Sup Scar?" Austin asked me when he approached me. "Hey, Aus. How's training without me?" I smiled up at him. "You are late, again." he said giving me a pointed look I just smiled sheepishly at him before replying "got caught up with the book I'm reading again." then I frowned thinking I just got here on time "did you guys start on time?" I asked glaring at him. "Nope, we started a little early." He answered with a chuckle. "then you tell me I'm late." I mumbled walking past him and into our trainer, Luke.

I got a lot of greetings around me which I returned with a kind smile as I made my way towards Luke.

"Hi Scarlet." Said Tina

"Looking good Scar." Connor said with a wink, which I rolled my eyes at but still smiled at him.

"Scarlet." Dawn smiled at me.

"How you doin' Scar." Troy ask. I smiled at him before replying "good."

And more greetings which I only returned with a small nod.

"LUKE!" my voice boomed around us, snapping the attention our trainer to me who is talking to Bethy, his mate.

"There she is!" Luke greeted me with a punch on my shoulder, I punch him back on his stomach with more force that sent him flying backwards and landed on the ground with a loud thud. He immediately got up and jumped at me shifting in the process. I smirked at him went into fighting stance. I waited for him to reach me before I kick his wolf in its stomach that sent it falling backwards. His wolf growled at me before he lunged for me again, I raised a single brow at him and looked around looking for a weapon, then I saw the small knife few yards away from me, I didn't miss the small circle that formed around us though. I immediately made a move to get it but his wolf got my left foot stopping me on my move. I yelp in pain as his canines sank deeper than I expected. I kick his neck forcefully with my free foot making him loose his mouth on my foot and howled in pain. I used that distraction to get the knife in a lightning speed and before he recovered, I already got the knife millimeters away from his throat. I smirked at him and said "gotcha" he just rolled his eyes at me making me laugh at him. "Nice one Scarlet!" Bethy shouted from where she's standing, looking at us with an amused expression.

"Well.. that's enough show Scarlet and let him train us before you use all the time of this training showing off. " Lea, one of my friends playfully scolded me. I winked at her in return and got up from the ground, limping away from Luke's wolf form. "Shift and get dressed sir. " I said to Luke. He bark at me and went behind the tree to shift. I heard claps, wolf's whistles and few complements on how good I am from where I'm standing with Lea on my side. I made a dramatic bow for everyone to see and laugh at myself. I noticed Austin making his way towards me with a wide grin plastered in his face. "Good show." he said and put his arm on my shoulder. I glared at his hand but can't stop the blush creeping on my face at his simple gesture. I shook my head and turn to Lea who give me a knowing smile before walking away. I tried giving her don't-leave-me-alone look but she just ignored it. 

We trained for the next two hours before me and my friends hang out around the pack house, fooling with each other and laughing our asses off.

Well.... That was three years ago.

I smiled from those memories and wipe the bitter tear that escaped my eye. I stared at clearing, not a single soul can be seen.

They all went to the civilization. Left the pack house to interact with the humans. Now, this large pack house has no one but me and my family and some guards on duty. I sighed and decided to head down to my room because I'm currently at the rooftop looking at the wide, open space with trees and trees and surprisingly.... more trees! around.

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last edit 12/30/2016

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