Cursed

Please stay

Mate.

One word. That one single fucking word made me want to kill each and every one of his pack members, What did he know about me? Nothing! Did he really need to bring that topic? No! What does my fucking mate have to do with this? Nothing!

"Oh, I know who you are....... Alpha named Scarlet Hale who can't find her mate..."

Little did he know I already found him. And I can't be with him because he is the damn reason why I bacame this.... monster. Why this monster inside me awakened. Why thier lives are in line..

So I keep running. Using this part of me to let my anger out. Just hearing that word bring everything back.

He killed them.

I pushed myself further gaining extra speed that made everthing nothing but a blur, a gush of wind that whipped past the trees, making its leaves sway. This time the moon is nowhere in sight, it hide behind the clouds as if afraid of what is happening down here making everything pitch black but thanks to my heightened senses, I can still see everything clear.

Then my feet bought me here instead of the pack house. I must be so consumed by my thoughts of him. Those forest green eyes of him that can see through me. His callused hands that made me shiver that one time when he touched me. His---

No. Stop.

He killed them!

I never realised that I shifted on my human form if it weren't from my own voice, shrienking at myself. Pleading with myself to stop the thoughts of him because the ache I felt in my heart is too much to bear. I can stop myself from going to him, from jumping into his arms that made me feel secured but I can never stop the pain everytime his face comes into my mind.

My wolf is longing for her mate.

I can remember my first heat, how painful it has been. But I locked myself away from everyone that time. So no one  knew about that. Not even Austin.

Austin. He lost his father too that night, now he is the beta of the pack. Being me the Alpha, we both succeded in building my pack again, training them, making them stronger.

After the Alpha title was given to me and everything that the Elder said to me, there was this wierd thing that happens every night.

It was both a dream and a nightmare.  Sometimes its the same, sometimes its different from the other but something is connecting them. There are times that it was a beautiful one, but most of the time it was horrible.

After the first three months of suffering from the nightmares, I finally realize the message it was telling me.

Now, I'm doing everything I can to prevent what I think will happen in the near future. That's why I've been doing everything I can to gather warewolves as many as I can to save thier lives. Killing some in the process.

So those accusations Blake had said... he know nothing of what I've been through and what I'm still fighting for. He thought his pack would suffer? That's where he's wrong. Because they will die if I didn't make a move to save them.

'Where are you?' Austin's worried voice rang inside my head.

'I'm on my way home.'  I lied. Shifting again and heading to my home.

*
"What happened?" Was his first greeting as soon as I step inside that pack house, fully clothed. "Well, hello to you too my dear beta." I said putting both of my hands around him, seeking for comfort. His arms immediatly went around me hugging me tighter.

No!

My wolf screamed but I block her and buried my face at Austin's chest. "Tell me what happened." He said worried. But instead of replying, I tighten my arms around him.

"Am I a monster?" I asked once I calmed down. "No" he growled and ran his hand up and down my back, comforting me. I nodded still in his embrace. He kissed the top of my head and lead me to my room. Once inside he made me clean myself and eat.
"I'm not hungry." I said and pushed the tray of foods he bring  while I was in the shower.

Those dark orbs of him stared angrily at me and I reluctantly ate the foods he brought.

All the time I can fell his eyes on me that made me uneasy. "What?" I asked "What happened out there?" He asked full of concern. "You know Blake right? Well he doesn't wanna give me his pack." I said shrugging and continued on eating. "Of course he won't give you his pack! It's his pack Scarlet. He won't give it to you willingly!" He shouted which made me look up at him. Now, his face is contorted of anger. I remaind silent. "Please Scarlet, I'm begging you. Tell me why?" He face softens.

"I can't." I replied and put the food I'm eating at the table beside my bed. I lost my appetite.

"Well then, rest." He spat. I know its hard for him and to everyone that I put through in this situation but I have no other choice. I know I must do this alone but I need his help, I will shatter if I do this alone. I can't, I need him, his comfort.

'You can get the real comfort at our mate' my wolf said to me but I ignored her.

"Austin" I called when he was about to leave. He look back at me but his face viod of any emotion, he said nothing just stared at me.

And I, for once, who can't hold it anymore. Let down my guard and let him see everything I felt since the day I shut everyone down. "Please stay." I sob as the first roll of tear kissed my skin.  He immediatly rushed to me and engulfed me in his embrace. And I cried. I cried and cried until I fell asleep in his arms with him whispering comforting words at me and before I really welcome the darkness, I felt those lips on my neck exactly where my mark should be.

"I love you." I don't know if it was a dream. But somewhere around me, I'm sure I heard those words before darkness swallowed me whole.