THE BLAZING WILL Book 1

Chapter 12: After effects of kiss

She dared not open her eyes.

Her eyes were all teary. I had kissed her so hard.

I couldn't hold on any more. I wanted her, myself, me....and not the thing inside me. It was true that something inside me too wanted her. But I wanted her more than that.

I had fell in love with Nora. I had fell in love with her eyes......
, with the way she looks without wavering her eyes. The strong willed and innocent looks.
The way she holds on to herself so desperately even though the things around her seems to fall apart.
She acts strong in front of others but no, she isn't a slightest bit strong. Whatever she does, if it is wrong she cries in the inside while it's happening and hide in a room to cry. When something so nice happens she can't hold on as she wants to jump, then she jumps in her mind and and shows outside that she doesn't care. As if ,...'it happened, cause it happened.' Way of doing it.
Her cute sides, the way she pouts when I talk and laugh with other girls.........

I am certainly sure that she loves me. Otherwise she wouldn't have closed her eyes before I even came close. She has started, very early to be concious of me.

She smelled so nice. Her hair strands were blowing along with wind in a certain tone. Her eyes lined so beautifully like that of a peacock. I never knew her wrists were so small. Her body struture without any mention was also small. Her face was just the right propotion to hold in the palms of my hand. Like it was just made for me.

When I kissed her, she tried to push me back but she couldn't.

Her wrists were now at ease. Taking in whatever happening, accepting it completely just because its me. She loves me but what is stoping her. She wants to be in my arms but she doesn't. And it is high time that she has realised my feelings.

I know that she won't be able to completely accept all of this. I knew that I had to keep my space. I knew it that it would be hard on her. I knew that I had to abide to Ren. But I couldn't just watch her drifting to that childhood friend of hers......

I want her and she is mine.

She had been mine since the begining of time.

"Open your eyes.....the bell has rung you know.." I leaned to her ears and whispered.
I leaned back, giving back her personal space. So that she would open her eyes.

When she realised it, she slightly opened one of her eyes slowly like a small kid does when his mom had told him to sleep and yet he disobeyed and when she comes in acts out like he is sleeping, checking whether his mom is there or not.
So she did and then when she saw me she suddenly shut it out.

I laughed.

"You don't need to laugh all that you know. What do you think you were doing? You are an idiot..."
She started bursting but with a wavering voice. The shock must have not left her. Her face looks so red. It makes me so happy because her face has done that because of me. She shows that expression to me and me only. I wish nobody else sees that expression of hers.
No , wait , could it be........

"Wait a second, don't tell me...."
I looked at her very surprised...the possibility was a 70% and deep in, I was jumping in joy already before even assured.
She looked at me confused.

".......are you even listening to me.....you stupid..stupid,idiot....pervert...i..idi..."
"Idiot?"
"...yeah idiot...don't what, tell me what..huh....why , why are you staring me like that with that weird grin on your face.

" Don't tell me...was that your first kiss?" I couldn't stop smiling. This was because. If she gave a positive answer then I would be the happiest man alive on earth. Just thinking about the fact that no one except me, to have touched her. I was the first one to touch her lips and was the first one to make her feel this way...? Then ......